There goes the story...

I love my life!

2011-04-03T16:34:00.003+08:00

I'm OT-ing almost everyday due to the amount of workload recently. Director will be coming to SG this week and I've yet completed the amendment of a project. "Everyone cannot but Celeste sure can." This he what he said to me during our tele-conference with the other managers in HK a week ago. I am in such a deadly state.

Anyway, people around me are really nice, thus, OT-ing isn't as bad as it sound. At least you know there are people suffering and going through this tough time together. After this, we will be having a good time again when these projects are over!

I might be neglecting this space for a while till then...

PS: Probably gonna go KL in May since I can't go to TW.

Back after long year!

2011-03-18T21:01:00.005+08:00

I still prefer blogger than yola. I wanted to import my entries from yola here but... There's no such option for me. Click here for my past one year's entries. Oh, but the last time I updated was in August'10.

Most of you nosey parkers must be wondering what had happened during the last 6 months in my life. Well, I should say it was Awesome! I love my life now. I'm fortunate enough to get a new job in January and I have very very very nice colleagues.

Just early this month, I went KL with 4 of my colleagues and Hermes. :) It was really fun although the trip was really short. Just 2 days 1 night! Shopping was good and my love for them became doubled!

Although work has become really hectic recently, I have jiejie(my sup) to go through this together. OT-ed 3 days this week, felt really exhausted but I had daddy, baby and jiejie in the evening. They're funny and entertaining, it helps brighten up the working environment. I've named my colleagues in such names and I call them these in office. :P

If you realised, for those names that have never appeared here before will remain annonymous. Just to make things cleared, baby is not my boyfriend. It's an internal joke.

I think I'll update maybe at least once a week to keep track of my life. As much as I like my life now, I think I'll have to think of something I want to strive to get. Btw, I'm gonna register for part-time degree tomorrow. Jiejie actually helped me with the essay writing needed for the entry application. Simply love her! :D

A photo from KL trip before I end this post... Till then.

gone for good.

2010-04-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

This page has accompanied me for almost 4 years or maybe 5?

As much as I like this site, I like my new site too. Thus, I won't be updating here anymore. I realised that the past few days that I leave this hanging here, my blog traffic has increased. I have no idea why. Probably thats because you wanna know my new link?

SHIFTED!

Since I can separate private blog and public blog on my new site, I don't mind sharing my link with you. btw, I do not wish to see any copy-meows. you know what I mean.

probably, it's time

2010-03-31T18:03:00.003+08:00

I always didnt thought of change blog site was because I'm lazy to create new one la. but out of bordem just now, I tried creating a new blog.

No! Not blogger, nor wordpress. Neither is it livejournal. Hmmm, not the oh!sugar thing also. nononono, not tumblr as well. Yes, I'm making you think! hahahaa.

For kpo people. I know there are people checking out what am I doing now, how BAD my life is because I'm such a slut/bitch are anything you say. You happy can already.

Well, if you are really curious and want to you, you can try asking me? probably I'll tell you. It all depends on my mood.

Anyway, friends do ask me alright? ;)

xoxo.

Monday BLACK.

2010-03-29T09:46:00.005+08:00

WEEKENDS is Loved. Especially when it's spend with the lovely ones. ;)

Weekends was great. Started off with dinner on Friday. It was great to meet mei, kok and hui. Had a super fruitful time with them. i like! ;) Although I didn't meet Hermes on Sunday, I met Toh and Koh on Saturday lehh! The above neoprint... We took on Saturday lor. muhahahaha! Oh, I'm meeting Hermes this weekend instead because I was too tired to go out. I had a lazy Sunday. Eat, Sleep, Watch TV, Online. Seriously, this life is far better lor.

The only PLUS point about this week is... 4 working days! yes yes yes! Because, it's GOOD FRIDAY! I think it's not only good lor. It's AWESOME Friday, please! hahaha.

It's Monday ~~blue~~ BLACK!

I hate Mondays, which shows why I'm like totally in love with Garfield. To be truthful, our characters are pretty similar. Haha! I know it's a lousy comparison, but I like, cannot? LOL.

Today started off lousy. The resign feel is back leh. How? How to tahan for 3 months?

Last week's job was to do brochure. This week?! Website and OTHER THINGS leh. I feel very unfair. Firstly, I don't like the working environment. Did I not mention that it's like ALL males here! yes, more male staffs joined today, which adds up to fucking 6 guys and me. FUCK MAN. And the reason why I feel unfair is, that so called in-charge, whom I have problem communicating with him, is getting like far higher pay than me, but FUCK! I'm doing all the jobs leh. It's like he think of damn ideas, then I do. WTF lor. Think of ideas... like 4 out of bloody 10! The whole damn brochure I do, he just fucking check only lor. Now, the website, ask me do. FUCK man! Concepts everything all I must ownself think. Seriously lor. HERE SUCKS LIKE HELL.

I'm so gonna go look for part-time job seriously... Just 1 more week. And if I still cannot take it. I'm gonna say BYEBYE! FUCK MY LIFE seriously.

it's friday leh! I didn't see wrongly! hahaha

2010-03-26T14:08:00.002+08:00

I've waiting for today since like MONDAY? hahaha. and yes, finally F.R.I.D.A.Y is here!!!

.TGIF.TGIF.TGIF.TGIF.TGIF.TGIF.TGIF.TGIF.

Totally heart today please! Gonna meet meiyi, shuhui, kokleong for dinner later. It's been long since I last saw them. Another plus point to look forward to. What's more? I'm meeting Yanling and Christina tomorrow and meeting Hermes on Sunday.

This weekend is fully-planned. Totally loveeeeeee it to the max. muhahahahahaha!

And I'm so going to finish the brochure soon. 2 more pages to go. Yeah yeah! gogogogogo!!~~~

Ok, I'm too excited that I don't know what to blog today. Probably nothing. I'll try to snap snap pictures this exciting weekend and put up on Monday provided I'm not lazy la. And I've planned to do a post on my 3 years Poly route with images. Well, I predict that it'll take me about 2-3hours for that. So that will be put on hold first. hahahaha. Yes, I know I'm lazy. But what to do? You cannot do anything to me. neh neh ni poo poo!! :P

Alright then, you'll have to wait for my next update. BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE!

Tomorrow is Friday?!

2010-03-25T09:24:00.003+08:00

Yes man! the thought of tomorrow being Friday is AWESOME! totally looking forward. Although it's still the start of the day, there's something for me to get excited about!!

KOH YAN LING IS BACK! omgomg, i miss her so much lehhhhh... Spoke to her last night and I was like SUPER happy instantly. Ok, i love her deep deep.

No complains about work today because I'll have to do things that I'm doing yesterday and will be doing tomorrow as well. Guess what!? I got to know some new things and obviously I wont's type it out here. But I'll definately share with F.R.I.E.N.D.S! xD

Btw, I hate kpo people asking me what am I doing now, etc etc. Like you really care?! Act only, please! Just want to Kpo about my life nia. So not going to share with you lor. Kpo people! tsktsk. Stop asking me on fb.

And and, I realise that Mel's wall is has always been a source for people to realise that they know me. Probably it's my problem that I am forgetful and tend to not remember people whom I've not seen for very long time. Plus, I actually think that it's not neccessary for me to remember as they just take up my memory space. You might think I'm some mean ass, but then again, if you made a great impact in my life or you're like my good/best friends, obviously I'll remember you always.

For what I go and remember who "Tom/Dick/Herry" is when I don't even know will I ever meet him again. Please la, although world is small, but not always bump into people want leh.

By typing this, I suddenly remembered about yesterday's after lunch incident with this DAMN aunty! Fucking hell, totally pissed me. I went back to office first alone, since colleagues had to get things done. So while at the lift lobby waiting for lift, there was this aunty ask me...:

aunty: xiao jie ah, the office employing cleaner right? (btw, conversation was in chinese)

me: (being the kind hearted me, obviously I won't ignore her) hmmm, which company?

aunty: the person just tell me say this green building, walk in and it's here.

me: but there are alot of companies here, you have to tell me which then I can direct you to the office

aunty: the person just tell me this building, then never tell me anything else, just bring me to an office

me: (still trying to be patient with her despite her demanding attitute) you need to tell me the company name then I can direct you.

aunty: (ask like i owe her money like that. kns!) just bring me to an office, i go and ask can already

me: (crazy one, so many companies here, you expect me to bring you to all offices meh? fuck) you walk to the next lobby, there is the customer service centre, then you go in ask lor.

aunty: (continue her fucking attitute) you bring me there la. bring me there. I also dont know the way.

me: (bth already, so i answer her in very dulan way) ok, i bring you there.

And I just brought her there. ask her ownself walk to the place and I left. Hack care her please. Although she did say "XIE XIE" but lao niang buay song! tmd. Don't know this, don't know that still want to give me attitute. Yes, I might be rude and stuff but then again, if should was nicer, I would have tried to help her all the way. Moreover, it's like work day please. I hate work so much you still give me attitute. Don't know how to die lor. fucker.

So, I was so so so angry, I stompped back to office and I called my mum and rant to her. Ya, then after that, everything went back to normal lor.

Today I came work with slightly better mood. Partly because dad fetch me to work. (: Since I came in office till now(9.54am), I did nothing, unless facebook, blogging, check email is doing things la. LOL!

Pray for me that life's gonna be better and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for that. Oh oh, and PAYDAY is coming!

PS: Pay might be only worth 8days of work but then again, it's PAYDAY lehhh! can don't happy meh? hahahaha :D:D:D:D

Day 3 still sucks

2010-03-24T09:39:00.002+08:00

I was hoping and constantly telling myself everyday will be fine and soon I'll start to like the job. But hell NO! It gets worse everyday.

Today, I overslept. Though I still wasn't late, I was in a terrible mood. I only put sunblock today. This was how bad my mood is. I was feeling super moody and everyone in the bus who looked at me, will in return get a glare from me. Fuck them, nothing better to do is it?

On such days, I wouldn't want to bump into anyone because I am very reluctant to force a smile out. And yes, I was unlucky enough that I saw a colleague while walking to office. obviously, we have to walk together. Like I said, bad mood = hack care. I force a smile and said "morning!" and I didn't spoke to him all the way till even now.

I don't want to speak to anyone, moreover, I am very tired. With a shitloads of things to be done, yet I have totally no idea where and HOW to get started. Nobody is here to lend a helping hand or even to guide me. They just throw me out in the deepest ocean for me to die. Yes, this is the phrase.

This is what the boss told me," I am going to put you at the deepest part of the sea and you have to survive yourself. This is how you learn, and it is also the fastest way to learn." Fuck man, I am already so tired, and you do this to me.

Now you understand why I wanted to resign on Day 1 of work? Well nevermind.

So, on the super duper long journey bus ride to work this morning, many things ran through my mind. From resigning now(yes, immediately), or to persevere further. And probably I just test out a month, if I still dislike it, then I'll resign. At least, I get more pay right?

Well, I have also actually realise that this is not the kind of job I want in life. And the reason why I took IM is not because I want such job prospect. It's because it is slightly easier for me to pull through knowing that I hate exams very much.

I need to look deeply into what I want in life before I take another step.

Oh, btw... if you are asking me what is the plan I have in mind that I just posted as a shout on facebook. The plan is...

Work for 1 month --> Resign --> another 1 month of working (1mth notice) --> NO WORK --> Taiwan (with money!!! )

Not bad right? I know I know. This is why I want to persevere what. Just for the sake of PAYDAY!

when when?

2010-03-23T13:10:00.002+08:00

I am totally looking forward to weekends. Not that there's really exciting things happening, but it's days that NO WORK! yes yes!! but then again, it's only Tuesday.

If you ask me, I had the urge to actually resign on day 1 of work. This is how bad it was for me yesterday. Well, life have to be tough at times ya? So probably this is my tough time and I am so going to force myself to go through this. Bare with this, and after that, I believe life would be far better than now, isn't it?

I have alot of work to be done. Drag also no use, they just keep coming and coming. Boss comes straight to me to ask me do things, In-charge ask me to do things in "alien" language, other colleague ask for my help as well. I would so much like to reject, but I can't. Cause it is said to be my damn job scope. You know what? If i can find a job better then this, I'll quit immediately. Trust me. But well, pay wise has to be as good la. LOL.

Well well, I think I'm going to start sourcing for a new job. Then again, if I manage to pull through this kind of work style, things ahead are not as tough anymore right?

Whatever it is, I am just ranting here. Not for your comment. I would appreciate if you sit down and shut up. Thank You.

PS: Weekends, come quick... puh-lese!! ):

why work?!

2010-03-22T09:54:00.002+08:00

tmd. if not because of money, i wont even bother working lor. rotting at home might be boring, but definately far better than working please... why did i fucking find trouble with myself and find a job? should have rot at home further. yaya, because of the damn payday, i have to go through 9am - 6pm, Monday to Friday working life. fml.

9am doesn't sound early, it's the wake up at ungodly 7am which is early. boarding the damn bus which putt putt putt and take it's own bloody sweet time to travel that cause me to wake up so early. tmd, that bus took damn 50mins to reach workplace.

didn't able to pull myself up at 7am. i woke up at 7.15am instead, and guess what? i have to rush like fuck. and there, the day doesn't starts smoothly. smudge eyes, no masccara because i have no time to put it. forgot to bring it out too.

now, that i finally reached office 5mins before. thank god, i wasn't late. but yet, the person-in-charge of me can't fucking speak english normally. i dont mind if your english suck, but this is like as good as not speaking english. i have to fucking self translate myself and half of the time, i got it wrong. please leh, i normally can understand lousy english. no doubt mine is not much better, but at the very least, far better than his.

i might be too crude here. but in order to ask me to do a task properly, you have to give me the right advice. and not for me to guess. fuck la. and english already cmi, still want to fucking ask me do so many things and i have to slowly analyze what the fuck you talking about. design say design la, photoshop photoshop. tsk tsk. Ok, not alot of things, but it's useless things, waste my time only.

hello. this is singapore. want to work here, at least say something easier for me to understand la. i was still happy at first that you're not local, but fuck that you can't communicate with me. probably, you think what the fuck is my problem, talking bad about people. but seriously, this is SINGAPORE. yes, i understand. he might be trying his best to learn english already, but then again, cannot advice properly, ask others to do so.

the reason why he's in-charge of me probably is because of his working experiences, educations etc. but then again, isn't communication the most important factor?

ah! fuck it. got to get some job done and rot whole day. cannot take it? resign lor. dammit. fml fml!

the awaken blog. LOL.

2010-03-19T16:13:00.003+08:00

did you miss me? :P

probably because nothing much really happened lately, thats why there's lack of updates.

i'm home almost everyday. nothing much to blog about. photos are super little. maybe i do have some, but you know... uploading photos here is like super troublesome and slow and... (adds on many excuses) plus I'm lazy to do a collage.

anyway, i'm starting work on Monday and i'm super not looking forward to it. in fact, i don't like the word WORK. but well, i'll look forward to payday for more shoppings!!

on an exciting note, i'm going taiwan in june! YES YES. super happy about it.

alright, till then~

A new life.

2010-02-28T21:15:00.003+08:00

IM classmates(not all though)

Submitted all projects, which actually mark an end to my NYP journey. Three years really fly, thinking back, many things happened. From meeting new friends, to becoming really good friends. From being a freshie, to becoming senior of the school.

For the time being, I'll keep my fingers crossed. I just hope everything goes smoothly. I don't ask for much, just allow me to pass all modules. please...

Alright, I'll update soon. oh btw, Happy CNY and today is already the last day. Well, 15 days just flew past me even without me realizing till now. Till then~

we have look forward to this since 2007

2010-02-06T10:29:00.007+08:00

I'm going to self-declare(khoo told me tuesday is the official) that yesterday is the last day of school for Poly!

Everyone now is either stress with common tests, exams and/or projects. For me, I have 2 projects and 1 irritating common test. I have no idea how am I going to get those coding and all inside my brain by Wednesday because I HATE MEMORIZING! grrr, so irritating isn't it?

Well, I'm still looking forward to graduation. My greatest wish this year is to get into NTU. So anyway, I'm going to list out how I actually went through my 3 years of poly life. (Koh and Toh have already list them out, it's my turn!)

YEAR 1
♥ 4 days of FMO, pacak-ed with new classmates and skipped 1 day.
♥ classmates were friendly
♥ first time lessons in lecture hall
♥ got my first laptop!! :D:D:D:D
♥ totally don't understand lessons taught
♥ hearts 12noon lessons (1st time leh!!)
♥ dislike Christina (cause of a project)
♥ hate programming
♥ meiyi, daphne, shuhui, suping & eveleen -- cliques

YEAR 2
♥ FMO prep + OGL = lynnette, jianloong, fishy, janice, ah beng, quek and many more
♥ Steamboat at lianghua's place before cny!
♥ lianghua and kokleong always helping me for projects
♥ whine about 8am lessons
♥ unhappy about doing NTP
♥ driving lessons and school
♥ super good terms with lynnette, meiyi, shuhui, daphne, kokleong, lianghua
♥ dinners after school
♥ applied for IAP in Beijing

YEAR 3
♥ MOST MEMORABLE YEAR!
♥ FYP in school, rot rot rot
♥ Jasmine, my new friend -- GROUPMATE
♥ Got my Class 3 license at ONE go!!! :D:D:D
♥ Beijing for 1.5 months
♥ Huiling was friendly! -- new friend
♥ Make really great friends -- FARM FAMILY!
♥ Attachment company was GOOD -- John + MrHong = AWESOME BOSSES
♥ Met good friends -- xuelian, celyn, apple, yiqi
♥ Yanling aka KOH became my new classmate & I LOVE HER!!
♥ Christina, the girl whom I dislike for almost 2 years, same class as me again.
♥ Got to know Christina aka TOH better, I LIKE HER NOW! -- pineapple tarts puh-lese~~
♥ Classmates with Derrick, Jason and HONG GING(i know him in yr2) - My new nice classmates
♥ HATE THE 2 MUTES(esp the SHORTIE) TO THE MAX!!!!
♥ Meiyi, Shuhui, Daphne, Kokleong, Yanling, Christina -- SUPER FRIENDS (:
♥ Flood with projects
♥ Strive through all projects and here I am now!

I have no photos, KOH and TOH haven't send me photos yet!!! Anyway, I'm going to get my nails done today!! so excited! :D

PS: There is khoo's lab on tuesday but i don't think i am going
PPS: I need to complete my scenes for 3D animation by MONDAY!!

soon!!

2010-02-05T01:19:00.001+08:00

I will update soon, I promise! :D

PS: Tomorrow is LAST DAY OF POLY SCHOOL LIFE!

counting

2010-01-28T09:06:00.002+08:00

As days goes by, projects are slowly completing, one by one. However, it seems to me that time has slowed down it's footsteps. Why is it so? because I'm so looking forward to CNY? It's never been like this for the past few years. I've not look forward to CNY for very long. Well, not this year, I reckon it's because it's my final year.

I'm totally not loving my life now. It's really stressful. Not like what you can see. My period has been coming late for the past 3 months. And it hasn't come yet, for this month. I'm so unhealthy.

Apart from school life, I've also went shopping with koh and toh. We shop and shop just to find the perfect dress for CNY, yet, we couldn't spot any till we headed to City Plaza on Tuesday. We bought this Jacket that all 3 of us adore. Koh manage to get her perfect dress. Now, we need to get shoes, well, not really me because I am a shoes lover, I have 3 new pairs of shoes at home. I'll be meeting Yiqi and the rest for dinner at Timbre tomorrow.

Time flies. In a blink of eyes, I'm graduating. To see cousins, friends, friend's siblings getting married really shook me, I am this old already. I'm no longer that "xiao mei mei". It's time for me to go out to the working society. I think with my results, it's almost impossible to get into a university. Although I'll try, chances are still slim. Work and part-time study is fine for me though, I'm ready. I'm sure I am. I just cannot foresee myself going through this current school life I'm having now. I'll not take anything related because I'll just die of stress.

Well, this is my life for now. I'm sure I'll live a better one next month. Till then.

fml!!

2010-01-21T18:35:00.005+08:00

WTF is with my life?!

It seems like everything is going haywire. Dammit. Projects are driving crazy as usual. Argh!

1. Web2.0(which is already almost done!)
2. IMPP(done but need to enhance a little more)
3. 3D animation (haven't do)
4. ICTPM report + ppt (haven't even touch)
5. IAD phase 2 + enhancement (haven't started)
6. AMAP group work (Chan Tuck Cho haven't give!!)

omg omg, so many!! How how how?!?!?!

And there are super alot of things that happened lately which totally spoiled my mood. Sad life, that is. ):

turn back the clock.

2010-01-11T22:02:00.005+08:00

Calvin's Wedding

I'm busy doing AMAP now. In case you don't understand, for AMAP, I'm suppose to do a flash gallery. I chose to do on New Zealand btw.

I've always know that my attention span on work is very short, but I don't know how to prevent it though. So anyway, I doubt I've blog about my trip to JB last Sunday. It's been more than a week, but at least I still remember about it. For once, I'm not stm. To cut every thing short, I didn't really enjoy the food there. It is the people whom I meet during this really short that brings back all my memories. They are my Malaysian relative. 10 years ago, I look forward for every CNY approaching, no doubt, this year I'm also looking forward, but it's of different reasons. In the past, baby till 2003, I get to see ALL, yes, all my relative once every year on Day 1 of CNY, but since year 2004, it has never happened. I felt very heart-warming upon seeing so many of them at the wedding. If you ask me how well do I know Calvin, my answer will be I only have vivid memory of how he look, and can only remember his name. As for his younger brother, it's the other way round. I only remember how he looked like but not his name, but I guess his name is Alvin? lol. The reason why I remember how he look like is because I'm always joking and talking to him when we meet. We just seems to click well you see. He's really funny and he speaks to me in English. :D I cannot stand listening to them speak Chinese, so yes, I speak to him in English and he replies in English too! So, I had a great time meeting my relatives and deep down in my heart, I know that I might to have a chance to meet them again. Don't ask me why, it's personal. Or maybe if there is a chance to meet, it may be 5 years later or more.

It makes me wanna get married earlier, so I can invite all my relatives, even those whom I haven't met for 10 years. But that will never happen la. I'm so ugly, fat, results like crap and I cannot even see my future prospect.. who wants me? fml.

Alright, it's wordy but it's once in a while that I type about my relatives. So let it be. Anyway, I've got to continue on my AMAP. and I'm looking forward to more CNY shopping soon.

PS: shop alone in town for CNY on Friday for 3-4 hours. it's pretty fruitful. I like! ;)

can't wait for weekends!!

2010-01-07T19:13:00.004+08:00

I don't have much to blog today. I've started on IAD. Yes man!!

To-Do-List
1. Mobile Game (actionscript 2.0) - IAD
2. 3D modeling and visualization - 3Dmax
3. Report & presentation slides - ICTPM
4. Flash Website Portfolio (actionscript 3.0) - IMPP
5. Flash Gallery (actionscript 3.0) - AMAP
6. Shopping Cart (AJAX) - Web2.0
7. ~~Presentation slides - Comm Skills~~
8. ~~Bouncing Ball - 3Dmax~~

I'm done with 2 projects. 6 more to go. IAD is halfway done. 3D modeling also halfway done. Not bad. At least I did something! So proud of myself can!!!

and and and I PASS MY 3D COMMON TEST PAPER!!! I was so worried that I'm one of the failures because Khoo said there're a few failures. Lucky me!!

Alright! update soon!~~~

morning lesson.

2010-01-06T14:03:00.003+08:00

If you were given a choice, would you rather a person...
a) tells you how he/she felt and why he/she decides to make such decision truthfully
or
b) just simply gives you excuses so that you would feel better, however, at the end of the day, you realise that this bloody asshole has been lying to you all this while.

Well, my answer would be (a). So what if this truthfully makes me unhappy. For the fact of being truthful, it's more than enough isn't it? Tell me, how many people will be truthful to you with regards to pushing away appointments? They would normally just find an excuse and shoo you off. That's because you're unimportant. You're nothing in this person's eye.

It's ok if you choose be. But I totally hate choice (b). If this bloody fellow actually tell me a lie. FINE. If I happen to know that it has always been a lie, I'll hate this person for life. I would rather know someone who hates me to core and tell you straight in my face that I sucks, rather than being friendly and always fabricating lies. Thanks for your hardwork but you failed, badly.

Anywayyyy, I'm having ultimate good mood today. Although I was late for lesson(left home at 8.10am when lesson starts at 8am) and I cab to school 2nd time this week, I just feel more smiley today. (:

Hmmm, probably because I've actually said out what I really feel and not hide it. Being pretentious is tiring. But you can't ask me to suddenly ignore it right? It's not like the person has change. This person is still acting like a mute. I said like. It's a simile.

Talk to me when you really understand. I really do appreciate if you are able to understand how I feel.

tired

2010-01-05T23:17:00.004+08:00

I've been really tired these days.

Projects are haunting me and yet, I've only done with one only? I've been lacking of sleep. I don't know why. I can't seem to sleep enough even if I keep napping and sleeping. Thats a very bad thing to start with. Seems that something is causing me to be kept alone. I don't know.

After the holidays, I would rather stay at home or go straight home after school. I have no mood for other things. Well, but I'm looking forward for CNY shopping though.

I just made a decision. A decision that may make me regret some day. But who cares? That's my choice right? I've been really tired with all the plastic-sy acts. As much as I can prevent, I will stop being plastic. Ignore and avoid, that is. Maybe some of you may disagree with what I did, but isn't it better for you? You don't have to think for both sides. It's very difficult to be in such position. Yes, so what if I am being selfish. It's like, since you know that I don't like, isn't it better for me to not appear then to be a super thick skin fellow and pretend that it is not happening. I'm sorry, I can't. I'm not that kind of person who can just keep quiet. Keeping quiet does not solve anything.

As much as I am a loud and outgoing person, I am also someone who can see things very clearly with my pair of eyes. Why must I make it difficult for people? Is there a need to do so? I can just simply do a favour by not being present isn't it?

Well, I'm going to draw a line. A clear line, between people whom I dislike.

Maybe I should have a new year resolution:
1. Stop being plastic

In return, do me a favour, let me fulfill my new year resolution. Thank You.

memories of 2009

2009-12-31T17:09:00.026+08:00

ALERT! super long post with many images. (:

I think there's a need for me to blog today. I should say this year is a rather fruitful year. I've learnt alot, know alot. From good to bad. You list it, I experienced it. Many misunderstandings, unhappiness and dislikings have occured, and I hoped their cleared as well. As time goes by, good and bad things come and go. There is no 100% happiness. It's how you look at a problem, it's how you handle it. You might not have handled it in the best way, but you tried. Don't let regrets pull you down, because it's not worth. Look forward, do even better, strive for a better life, a brighter future.

Come to think about it, a few years back, I was still a school girl. Waking up at 6am, getting ready, put on my uniform and off to school. There were many, yes, many unhappiness. But I was lucky, I met a great friend. and now, she's my best friend. I'm one lucky girl, to have such a friend. So what if I have 10 friends? It's nothing compared to 1 best friend. A friend who stood by you through thicks and thins.

Had to work part time before entering polytechnic. I met a super nice colleague, whom now became one of my good friend. She's been so nice. Like an elder sister. She's been a good company. Even till this date. (:

Then, I entered polytechnic. I met a group of superb classmates. Helping each other from the toughest projects to the easiest ones. Even during our fyp, we meet for lunch almost everyday. Then I went to Beijing. They were so nice. Organise a farewell dinner for me, gave me the biggest hand made card ever and it's in purple! and my best friend drop by school to pass me moisturizers because she knows my skin is sensitive and may have super dry skin. Thank you so much.

During the 6 weeks in Beijing, I have a super nice room mate. Although we don't know each other at first, now, we've became good friends and even classmates. I've also met some awesome friends during the trips. I enjoyed the trip so much that I didn't bare to come back. The weather, the shopping, the people, the fun, and the independence that I've never had in my life.

Back in Sg, we went for our attachment. We meet up pretty often and had loads of fun! And I met new friends, really nice people during work. Now, although my classmates for the past 2 years are split into different classes due to our specializations, we still meet up for lunch, dinner and even outings!

and YES, I got my Class 3 driving license on first try in March this year! (: Which made my parents so proud of me after the disappointment they had ever since I gave up piano.

I have no New Year resolution. I've never fulfilled any in the past, and I doubt I will this year as well. But I really do hope 2010 will be a better year, for me, for my family and for my friends whom I adore.

I'm feeling super emotional now after typing these. But this is how I feel and I'm going to let everything down. What's done is done, and can never be change. All the misunderstanding that is cleared are cleared. Apologies for everything is accepted. It's over and we'll be acquaintance. I no longer dislike you, but it can never be the same.

No countdowns for me, I'll be staying at home, dating 3D and flash for romantic candlelit dinner. Maybe you, my dearest friend, can just drop by my place and give me a lovely surprise! Well, have a great countdown everyone. :D

Before I end this post, I'm not going to be as lazy as I used to be. Gonna put up loads of images which I've always failed to do so to sum up year 2009!

From steamboat, gatherings, movies to beijing, penang and photoshoots.

Happy New Year!

With much loves,
Celeste
31 December 2009
7.15pm

The battle begins...

2009-12-30T14:21:00.006+08:00

City Square Mall!

I think photobucket is against me these days. I can't seem to upload my photo there whenever I wanna blog. This is getting on my nerves. Grrrr. And I've to use the lousy blogger photo upload which make the image so small even when I click "large". How irritating can this get?

Anyhow, photo was taken on our first time to City Square Mall. I like that place. Although it's near Mustafa, there are not many ___ there. Shan't type out if not it'll become a racist term.

Yesterday, friends(we're in diff class already) came over for a gathering session. Although not many came, it was still indeed fruitful. I may not invite them over anymore. You know, little brother really irritate me alot. I bold-ed the "may" word because I might still invite them. LOL.

2 more days before 2010. I'm totally not looking forward because it'll then be projects submission. I feel very ashame to say that I'm only done with 1 project, which is the Comm Skills slides. ): How do I fight with these projects?

Probably because I haven't had holidays for damn long because previously, I was working throughout my holidays. This holiday, I stayed at home most of the time. And now, I don't even bare to leave home. I'm too lazy to do so.

What's worse is that I'll be going over to JB for nephew's (yes, nephew. I didnt type wrongly) wedding on Sunday. There goes my lovely Sunday. And and I haven't bought my mascara and I can't find my eyeliner. I'm so dead man! I also haven't decide what to wear. This is so crazy!!

Can someone just help me with my projects? I'm so lazy to get started.

HOW HOW HOW?!?!?! How to win this battle?

My bestfriend.

2009-12-27T00:11:00.004+08:00

I love my nails color. (:

Fret not! Christmas is not over yet. There are 12 days of Chirstmas, you forgot? hahaha. I like the 5th day, because...

Five Golden Ringsssssss!!!

*evil laughs*

As I've said, my camera is spoilt. So I had to bare with my lousy 5 Megapixel phone camera for the time being. I still have no plans of getting a new camera though. With that lousy camera, I can only depend on my bestfriend, Photoshop. That's the before and after in the above image. It's not really a miracle, but it does more or less help, don't you agree?

Gonna catch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 tomorrow morning. Yes, I am a typical Singaporean. Update again soon. I'm gonna change a new blog skin!! Say "YAY!".

where's my present? ):

2009-12-25T01:02:00.005+08:00

It's the season of LOVE!

Hohoho!~~~ I hear the sound of reindeers, the voice of Santa. but...

Santa skipped my house because there's no chimney. He can't come down and deliver my present to me. ):

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Christmas Shopping!

2009-12-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

Shopping is fun! (:

I know I've not update alot. Well, I'm not really that busy, it's just that I didn't login to blogger. Life have been superb after common tests. Christmas shopping, slacking, rot rot rot... ... But it's not a good note you know. I still have a list of projects to do.

Gonna catch Avatar tomorrow, Chipmunks on Sunday. And I still need to shop leh. But cash is running low really quickly. How how how?

So tired. update soon alright!?! :D

skiving!

2009-12-16T10:30:00.003+08:00

credits to deviatart

I'm suppose to study now, like what the above image is. But I can't seem to. how?! I'm so going to be in dead meat later. Paper starts at 2pm and I've not studied. Somehow, I'm just lazy to the extreme lor. Seriously, I can't wait for 3pm to arrive quickly leh. ):

Shopping and playing is all I have in mind now. What if I don't do well for the common tests?

Common tests!!!

2009-12-14T16:34:00.002+08:00

Sad life. Sad life. Sad life. Sad life. Sad life. Sad life. Sad life.

I really really dislike common test to the max can!!!! I cannot memorise things one leh. It's not in my dictionary lor.

Tomorrow is web2.0 paper and i've not study for it yet. At the thought of studying, I feel like sleeping lor. Yawns~ and and Ah zhuo super nice can, she msg me the pages to study lor. So kind of her. I will at least read through ok? Don't waste your effort of msg-ing me. hahaha! (: THANKYOU!!

3D paper is on Wednesday!!! Last paper leh. So excited can. I'm excited about the aftermath. THURSDAY!!! omg, looking forward lor. I have nice classmates you know~ (:

Ok, I'm going to nap awhile and study abit later. Update sooooon!

sometimes...

2009-12-12T20:53:00.004+08:00

credits: deviantart.com

I have so many things in my mind and I'm going to sort them all out here tonight. After this, I am not going to repeat myself anymore.

Is friendship really very fragile? I think it depends on who your friend is. I don't have such problems with Cheryl and Angtint. I seem to have know them forever. What I cannot believe is even Yanling understand how I feel. The strength of a friendship does not only rely on how know we know each other. Look at how Yanling and I get along now?

What I'm upset about is how you treat us. As a friend, we are real infront of you. We show you how we feel, tell you what we think is wrong, although sometimes we may not be correct, but we bother to tell you. We don't talk behind your back and yet, look at how you treated us. We're like acquaintance now. You treat HER like your best friend but you don't know how unreal she was to you in the past. Do you know how hurt are we after seeing such things happening? You go to her for everything, but us? We're invisible. Wow, I never knew we had such special power. Thanks for letting us know huh. When she go to you for anything, you're there. How about us? When we really hope that you come, all you say is "Sorry or Are you OK?" Wtf? I don't need this alright. This is what I call surface concern. Just to show outsiders that you care, but in fact, it's just asking for the sake of asking. I'm sorry, but I don't need this. You can just shut up. I'm not saying that you're a hypocrite and I know you're not. But, you seem to be acting like one. I hate to know about so much things. I use to care so much about you, worry about you because you're my good friend. And this is how you repay me? Thank you. You show everyone that you are the kind that keeps everything to yourself. But well, I know that you tell HER everything. You do not treat us as your true friends because you never have faith in us. What's the use of me bothering so much about you? Getting so upset about how you treat us? I'm sorry but I'm not going to tell you straight in your face about it because you'll end up telling HER and continue everything all over again. Sometimes, you just make me feel like you always didn't want to be friend with us. It is because we happened to become your friend, so you reluctantly accept it. I don't need such friendship, and I promise, from today onwards, you lead your own life. Until the day I see you coming to me, and be truthful to me, then we'll be friends like now. If not, Good Bye. and I'm sorry to be so harsh.

And for people who are selfish and yet pretend to be caring for their friends, please get lost. You suck. I don't like to hide my feelings. Although I don't say anything, doesn't mean I cannot see anything. I'm not blind. You are overly selfish. Not everyone is as heartless as me, but I'm sorry because I don't like to be plastic. Just don't appear at any outings when I'm out with my close friends(you know who you are). Can't you just see that you're getting on many people's nerve already? I don't believe you don't know anything. You're not stupid. You just pretend. Keeping quiet does not make you become a victim. Being a Problem is already something that cannot be changed. Can't you just step out and solve it? Instead of doing this, you're dragging everybody into this bloody shit. It's fine with me if you drag people whom does not revolve around me. I won't give a fuck about it. But now, you're dragging one of my closest friend in. I am very pissed with you. Remember the other time I had conflict with -, you didn't even bother to help her. You never bother to tell me that she is actually not as bad as I thought she was at first. But luckily, I manage to know her better. She's like a gazillion times better than you. Get your ass off the chair and solve the damn ass problem that has been around for almost 6 months. If not, you should just fucking get out of my life. Or stop showing those pretentious face infront of me. You make me wanna puke. Friends have asked me to tell you, or rather advise you. But my reply is, I'm not going to say anything to you because you don't deserve it. Only my friends deserve helps and advices from me. You are no longer a friend to me because you drag my closest friend into deep shit.

Even being so far away, I can actually know such things happening. Sometimes I should just shut my mind out from these things. They're just draining my energy.

Read and figure out who I'm talking to. Don't come and ask me "You ok not?" and stuffs like that. I'm fine!

Thanks to these, I'm not looking forward to this year's Christmas.

PS: Above are 2 different person.

tomrrow is friday!! (:

2009-12-10T21:03:00.015+08:00

Did i ever post this image?

I love Fridays and I totally look forward to weekends can!

Common tests are arriving, Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday, after that I can rest abit and yes, do projects!! Next Thurday will be Kbox. Although there's no crave for it yet, I'm still excited about it. Muhahaha.~

Today's lab test was good. Almost died while checking errors. Guess what's my error? That bloody Behavior, I typed Behaviour. I check 3 times, only the last time then I saw lor. Kns. Behaviour wrong meh? Tsk tsk.

Storyboard is done!! Need to get the project brief for the flash gallery done by this week end so that it can be submitted next week.

Tomorrow will be going shopping with Mummy and Bro, and most probably meeting Daddy for dinner in town. It's been super long we go shopping together. Anticipating can!

Can't wait for common tests to be over!! ;)

not funny.

2009-12-08T15:40:00.015+08:00

food just cheers me up! (:

It's been going on forever. Stop and it comes again. Nothing better to do? Focus on your studies. You're free, but not everyone is.

Stop trying to be funny. You're just acting like a kid, and it's pissing me off. Stop all those stupid things. Not funny at all. Grow up. And think before you do stupid things. THINK.

Some people are just super thick skin. I don't know why. No initiative at all. Based on the things that have happened since then, it just proves it all. Thick skin, that is.

All these acts just pisses me off. Don't get me upset, or you'll be sorry.

If these goes on, I'm sorry if I have to be plastic infront of you.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Anyway, Ben's 21st is nearing. Another 21st, yes yes. Gonna get him a ... ... shhhs, not gonna mention yet. And after that will be peipei's 19th, followed by hamham's 21st.

On a very sad note, there are alot of projects/assignments this holiday.

1. Visualization for 3D modeling
2. 3D beach ball bouncing animation
3. homepage/front page of portfolio
4. flash gallery (actionscript 3.0)
5. mobile game (actionscript 2.1)
6. ICPTM project
7. Comm Skills "teaching" Presentation

*screw actionscript!!

Wow! So many and these aren't easy. Hopefully I can get them done asap and I can have a happy holiday!~ This year's Christmas is not as relax. ):

Looking backwards, then forward.

2009-12-06T11:54:00.002+08:00

Going to meet hermes later to catch New Moon. I'm not looking forward to it because I dislike Bella. And Edward appearance in New Moon is so little.

Anyhow, I hope the JB trip will be cancel. Then I can go for the celebration on 19th.

And, I've completed IAD game design report! so proud of myself can!! Before term break arrives, I've to submit the 3D animation for beach ball bouncing, story board for 3D animation, and... get over with all the lab tests. hmmm, did I miss out any other things?

I've also decided to apply to NTU next year. (: Haven't really decide the course that I want to take. I'm pretty interested in Psychology, however, they need me to have o's amaths or equivalent. ): I don't know how, and can't make up my mind. Shall wait till the date of application is nearer...

Alright, got to go get ready to go out. Update soon. :D

busy to the very extreme...

2009-12-02T23:36:00.003+08:00

Ex-Colleagues. (:

I want to go out, I want to shop, I want to have fun, I want to just laze on bed one whole day doing nothing. I want, I want, I want... ...

So many assignments, so many projects, upcoming lab tests, upcoming common tests. This is year 3 life, SCHOOL. I can't wait for Cny to arrive!!

A very good friend of mine just asked me for help on a event. Not gonna mention who(Some of you may know who I'm referring to), but I have agreed to help despite having a very tight schedule because this friend of mine(although I know him for only 6 mths), have been really nice to me, teaching me things I've never got a chance to learn before, giving me all the opportunities available to learn, to enter the cruel working world. He told me, just remain who you are, it's good enough. It's no use to be afraid, not happy, just say. So all and all, I'm going to help him, I'm going to meet him to discuss on it. That's what friends are for. Isn't it? ;)

I'm getting lazy all over again. But NO! I need to continue to work hard, although work hasn't been perfect, it's been completed okokok! :D

No photos for now. Update soon. (:

;)

2009-11-29T13:07:00.001+08:00

last wednesday dinner with est & fy after NAPFA

Friday was K-lunch with dapdap, shuhui, kok, lynnette. Had fun... After that we hangout awhile then I went home. I was super tired. Practically slept on the bus all the way home. zzzzz. Did abit of 3D and talk to parents then rot, after dinner, spoke to Hermes on the phone then slept at 9plus. I am really deprive of sleep can.

Yesterday went grandparents house at HollandV. Aunt help me do my toe nails. Acrylic extention and 3D nail art. I like! Is like super expensive if I were to do it at those meni/pedi shops can!

Went for Dim Sum breakfast at Safra TPY just now. And now I'm home looking at 3Ds again. Alright, update again soooon.

;)

2009-11-29T13:07:00.000+08:00

Friday was K-lunch with dapdap, shuhui, kok, lynnette. Had fun... After that we hangout awhile then I went home. I was super tired. Practically slept on the bus all the way home. zzzzz. Did abit of 3D and talk to parents then rot, after dinner, spoke to Hermes on the phone then slept at 9plus. I am really deprive of sleep can.

Yesterday went grandparents house at HollandV. Aunt help me do my toe nails. Acrylic extention and 3D nail art. I like! Is like super expensive if I were to do it at those meni/pedi shops can!

Went for Dim Sum breakfast at Safra TPY just now. And now I'm home looking at 3Ds again. Alright, update again soooon.

tired but enjoyed

2009-11-27T00:40:00.003+08:00

I understand everything now. Everything seems so much clearer.

Well, headed to bedok for dinner with Celyn, Xuelian and the rest. Had great laughs, chats and all. How can there be no laughs when John is there! He's our No. 1 joker. As usual, he keep hitting my head. Not those super hard kind, but still, make me stupid what. Super rude leh he. Anyhow, I had a good time with all of them, including Mr Hong. I finally took a photo with him!! hahaha. And i'll see Xuelian from Monday onwards. Muhahaha!!~~~

So, today is great and I hope for a better tomorrow and every other day. Update with photo soon. Goodnight!

it's always you you you...

2009-11-25T22:02:00.004+08:00

How do you define S-E-L-F-I-S-H?

Everyone is selfish, but to what extend?

Watch 2012 just now, and yes, we, human being are selfish. Very selfish indeed. Int the movie, although they are selfish, they are truthful and show how they feel and we know that their selfish for their LIVES. They do not care about compromising. All they care for are their love ones.

But when you say compromising, what do you really mean?

These are all nothing when it comes to YOU. You only know how to say others, how about yourself? Anything you do, you announce it loudly to let the whole world know. You say others are always acting pitiful, I think You are the one instead. I've said before, 1 finger pointing at others, 4 fingers pointing back at yourself. Think.

I think I've said this before, but I couldn't get over the above incident. The more I think, the more "bu shuang" I get. If you say I'm unforgiving, then you are totally wrong. This person never apologise before. If a person really apologise, no matter how unhappy I am, I will forgive. We may not be friends anymore but at least, there's no longer this unhappiness between us. However, for this person, whom thinks new friends are more important, I doubt this person even knows the mistake made. No one bothers telling because it seems like something like that has happened before to this person but nothing changed. So, what's the use of saying? Waste my energy only. I'm seriously very pissed with this too(because i keep thinking and thinking, from no feeling till agitated). Grrrr!

We have our eyes to see, and Thank You so much for getting us into deep shit. Thank You again, for letting so many people dislike us. Totally agree with what - said. I like my life now, and I do not hope it revolves around you ever again.

PS: I don't deny that I'm selfish at times, but I don't ask people to compromise me yet being selfish MOST of the time.

You? no no, it's me! (:

2009-11-24T20:05:00.004+08:00

It's an honour to know people like them.

Yesterday was a Blast. Or did it not? Other than the unhappiness at Mache before the rest came in, everything was great. As usual, people like beng and jj crap and joke to brighten up the atmosphere. I like!

Well, but as much as I'm never going to go to Kbox plaza, I'm never going to go Vivo's Mache again. Looking forward for the opening of Mache at 313 Somerset. Please do not invite me for any celebrations or whatsoever at the above stated 2 places because I will not turn up and am sorry about that.

Whatever it is, everything is over. Something's wrong with this week. There's so many things going on until... ... I've lost track of what I'm suppose to do, and things to be done. I need to start planning out schedules before everything goes haywire. Oh nononono, I really need some luck for this sem. Something is going wrong somewhere.

And I have this urge to change my blogskin, but I'm not going change it anytime soon though. Time is lacking on my side, at the same time, I'm deprive of sleep. Thanks 3D modeling, for giving such a tough time.

Alright, off to get my IMPP proposal done so that I can concentrate on 3D.

PS: submission for ALL(8 or 10 of them) 3D modelings on Week 7. I have one more weekend!!

Happy Birthday Turtle!~~ (:

2009-11-23T11:05:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Lim Meiyi!! ;) love you deep deep.

k, off to get ready for school. (:

assignments and projects

2009-11-22T12:45:00.006+08:00

One of my greatest enjoyment is to know them in these 3 years of NYP life.

I think blogger suck. I just clicked on the publish post and there was a damn error which needs me to retype everything again. T-M-D!

I'm not going to type everything out again. To cut everything short, I'm gonna put the goods and bads in point form.

Looking forward & excited for Week 6:
1. Meiyi's Big Day! ;)
2. Hermes is back (can meet her during weekends). :)
3. Meeting Xuelian, Yiqi and the rest :D

Totally hope to skip Week 6 and fast forward to Week 8:
1. Submission of 3D modelling(i think there are 12 of them to be submitted on week 6&7)
2. Submission of proposal

Oh well, I'm leading a happy yet sad life. Photos are all outdated because I have no new photos la. Camera spoilt thus no motivation to take photos. Hp camera = no standard. Too used to using camera + good quality already. It's my problem la.

I don't know how the hell am I going to get the 3D modellings done as I've not even completed one. I feel so.... argh!!

My only wish/hope now is to quickly get over this week and next week safely. Does miracle happens?

in and out

2009-11-21T12:31:00.004+08:00

so what if the image above is not sharp, it's ok. As long as we are happy with what we're doing, isn't it?
I don't know what is happening. Please be reminded that when you point your finger at someone, 3 fingers are pointing back to yourself. After some talk with - (shan't mention names), it really shook me up, drag me out from my world, the one which I've lived in peace for sometime. It's time to look back and think. What - said was right, everything was started because of her. I feel bad, we feel bad, to talk about this. But it's really a fact. Facts that we cannot avoid. Living in the world of mine keep me safe, makes me trouble free. Never did I know, - has experienced so much unhappiness. Now, come to think about the thing that happened previously, I've regret what I did. Being steady and all wasn't always good, because you are steady, but the person isn't. And there, you're all soak wet while the person is dry. Craps! What's done cannot be undone. I'll always be reminded of this, and i promise myself never to let such things happen.

Talks really let you know how others feel, - thanks for telling me and letting me know so much. I didn't mention your name because I felt you need to be kept anonymous. We'll back up for each other, in work or other matters. Because your trust, makes me feel that our friendship has been brought a great step closer and better. (:

Monday's Meiyi's 19th Big Day. I'm feeling super excited for her. I don't know why. Hopefully, no unhappiness and nothing screws up in between. Totally looking forward.

"Dearest all,
You are invited to join our beloved turtle on her 19th longevity birthday. Please be advise that we will be dining at Miss Turtle hideout "Mache" @ Vivocity at 7pm for dinner. For such a special day, we sincerely hope that you can join us & Miss Turtle.

PS: please reply to inform if you are coming or not

Hope to see you there.

Loves, Celeste"

@ peranakan museum

2009-11-14T10:58:00.002+08:00

Peranakan Tour (:

Although I forgot my phone.
Although my bag is wet(but it dried up after that).
Although my camera spoilt.

With such jovial people around me, everything just became much better. I love my friends. Esp, the ones in the image above. The fun we had yesterday was beyond words to describe.

It was free entry to the museum for all NYP students. 1st YAY!
We took many photos. 2nd YAY!
We talk and crap! 3rd YAY!

If I had to use a word to describe, it's FABULOUS!

I went out with Cheryl on Monday. We had talks and all. I had fun. And on Wednesday, went over to EXPO to interview John for our comm skills presentation. I sincerely thank him. Photos not up. I'll upload when I get hold of them.

For now, I've got to go get ready to go out for lunch, then to grandma's place. After dinner at Furama(which i don't think the food is nice) cause it's grandma's birthday.

PS: I am still upset about my spoilt camera though.

black black friday

2009-11-13T13:34:00.002+08:00

Look at the sky, it's black. Look at me, my face is "black". Why?!

1. i forgot to bring my phone to school.
2. my bottle of water poured out in my bag.
3. my camera became wet thanks to the water and it's spoilt.

These 3 reasons are enough for Black Friday. AHHHH, i hate today. ):

I am still the same just that...

2009-11-09T20:42:00.003+08:00

I've been leaving in my own world for a period of time. I like this life, doing what I like.

I do not want to get involve in anything, please do not drag me down. I sit, i listen, i think, i advise, i joke, i smile. But then again, you can ignore, you can also accept it.

I've actually realised that nobody in this world is liked by everyone. I believe that there is definately a ONE out there that dislikes the person. No matter how lousy a person's personality gets, there is definately something in that person that is good. I no longer care whether people hate me or like me. I have my friends. What really matter is how my friends think of me, likes me. Not how strangers think of me, and likes me or not. It's me, and not you. So why you poke your nose into others' life?

You live yours and I live mine, doesn't it just live much more happpiness than misery? You know, it doesn't make me any happier by putting you down, vice versa. After all the misunderstandings, it just reduces our trust. Is it good like this? No right?!

So, I should just continue living in my own world and I'm satisfied with my life. (:

Ps: nothing has really happened. i just suddenly felt like... this is part and parcel of what we call LIFE.

ALERT!!! :/

2009-11-07T16:19:00.001+08:00

Oh dear... I've actually left my blog dead for so many days.

Well, I doubt people really do come visit this site... I'll update when the blogging mood comes. For the time being, just stare at this page. :)

you, me or they?

2009-11-01T12:09:00.000+08:00

It seems weird. Feels weird. Gets weird.

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENING? you tell me, tell me! ):

Grrrr...

2009-10-29T19:12:00.002+08:00

Is it me or what?

I'm so easily irritated with undecisive things. And I really dislike people pushing things here and there. All I need is just an answer, is it that difficult? Super irritated and I hate such situations to happen.

Sometimes, outing alone or with a girlfriend is so much simpler and more fun. No unhappiness at all.

Don't comment. It'll just irritate me even more.

it's been like that.

2009-10-28T16:10:00.001+08:00

It's been awhile since school started. No photos, nothing. Just assignments, projects and more assignments, projects. How boring can my life get? There! No life. Totally looking forward to Friday and I promise I'll snap a whole load of photos and fill my camera with many new images.

SCIENCE CENTRE, wait for me!!!

PS: haven't been to science centre since Sec 2 which is like 5 years plus. This shows why I'm this excited! ;)

Week 2

2009-10-26T18:20:00.004+08:00

Don't need to praise me HAHAHA. Rob Pattz fans must be jealous! MUST BE.

I did not do this myself. credits goes to PhotoFunia. I was browsing through some sites and i came across this site. hahaha. It is definately not photoshopped although I believe I'm able to do it in a few hours?! OMG, that freaking long can. So to cut everything short, PhotoFunia has done a great favour for us all. hahaha.

"Bite me, EDWARD." hahaha.

Well apart from these things, today's school was boring as usual. I dislike school so much can! LaoNvRen's lesson is tiring to the max. 3 hours lei, who can tahan?! you tell me, you tell me! After school, Yan and I went to AMK. Okay, we are very mafan girls. We walk round AMK including AMKhub to check out the BEST price for Medicure and we landed at the first Nail shop that we saw. In short, we actually took quite sometime to decide which shop to enter. HAHAHA. Nonetheless, we had fun. And PRETTY NAILS. damn happy can!

Nightmare keep calling me, which kind of pissing me off. Argh! I'm heading to Expo tomorrow to get my PAYCHEQUE and and to save XueLian. Hohoho! One stone kill two birds. How smart can I get? :)

Alright, I'll update again.

PS: Girls(XueLian,Yiqi,Apple) are dragging me to CHOMP CHOMP for dinner tomorrow lei. so lazy. ):

Finally!

2009-10-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

I miss work alot.

Why?

It's because I am very tired of schooling. Attending lessons are so boring and tiring. Projects are giving me stress (even i haven't started a wee bit). Lectures and Labs are so quiet. I've not been the noisy me for so long, you know, i kind of missed it too. For some reasons, I have no strength to get high after class. Too tired? Probably yes.

I think I'm so boring that makes yanling feels bored too. I am so sorry about it. And can you believe it? I can actually sleep in class. Great! 0.0

Firstly, I am very glad that Week 1 of school is finally OVER! Time is ticking so slowly. Oh my oh my... ... My wish is to fast forward the time, for now. I dislike school as much as I dislike eating salad.

I haven't been late for any lessons yet, for this week. I am very proud of myself for this, and keeping quiet and all has somehow become an unknowingly habit of mine. I am less noisy.

I'm having flu now which caused me being unable to sing songs that's playing on my laptop. It's pissing me off. I've been learning all kind of weird songs lately, and different languages of song. Getting prepared for the next K session. However, no one date me for K yet. People! Auto ah!! (:

Sorry for the wordy post. I am still feeling lazy to transfer the photos in my camera to laptop. So, bare with the words for the time being.

My bed is calling me already. Gonna go sleep soon. I woke up at an un-godly hour today and reach school before 8am. Praise me praise me! ;)

PS: I don't feel like doing the discussion forum assignment. ):

i think i...

2009-10-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

i think i...

need a new laptop!

anyone, wants to get 1 for me?

on and on and on. (:

2009-10-21T22:55:00.002+08:00

Yours truely. (:

I think I've been really lucky, having great friends around me. One word, Thankful. Friends have been really helpful. People like Beng, Queky and maybe even Bryan and Boon share lecture notes with me. JianLoong has been pretty nice to entertain me a little too. I feel damn high seeing them before/during/after class. Not forgetting Mei, Kok, Dap and the rest. Totally enjoyed the time talking cock, singing song with them.

Although projects have started to pour, fret not, I have dearest Yanling! (:

See, now you know how fortunate I am right?

Today, I had a fruitful time with Mei, Kok, Beng, Bryan, Boon, Hui, JL, JJ, Dap and so on. Did I not mention that i spelt Bryan's name as Brayn and he was making a joke out of it. LOL. Full of craps can. Mei was laughing over it too. Damn rude can. After that, Khoo was really nice(as usual). Crap with us in MAC and treat us cups of Milo, Fries and Mc Wings. How nice right? Unlike him during lesson lor, he agrees that I'm damn quiet in class. Believe it or not, I am really quiet in class. haha. Good Girl can! Mei have no choice but to believe since Khoo says it's true. Muhahaha. ;)

Apart from school related stuffs, I am meeting xuelian, yiqi and apple for dinner tomorrow. I'll be meeting them at Tampines Mall. Yes, like wth. Damn far can. No choice, they want to eat Tongkichi(is it spelt like that?), a japanese restaurant. Xuelian has 30% off. Only at Tampines outlet though. Well, my only hope for tomorrow is that SEETOH will let us off early. Pleaseeeeee...

Alright, it's late already. Or rather, I'm sleepy already. Have been sleepy pretty early lately can. hahaha. Goodnight!

PS: No whinnings today. *wink wink*

Day 2

2009-10-20T20:16:00.004+08:00

lalalalala~

It's only Day 2. Hmmm, Yanling... we need to snap some photos in school kkkk? (:

Anyway, today's khoo's lesson was fun. Totally love Photoshop can. It's my ALL-TIME favourite. Photoshop - my best friend! Hopefully more photoshopping coming up and time will FLYYYYY! yes yes yes.

On a sad note, tomorrow's lesson starts at 8am. Such an un-godly hour. And it'll draggggg till 3pm. How sad can life in school be? Very sad indeed. (self answer) This place will be my whinning place till I get sick of whinning about school k? ;)

Did I actually mention that projects have start to pour in. Sucks! 1 project = 10 projects can. Wth is with PORTFOLIO.. you tell me, you tell me?! And most of these revolve around FLASH. Although Flash isn't my ALL-TIME enermy, but it's unlike photoshop! What's with the motion-tweening in CS4?! Irritating piece of shit.

Okay, apart from these whinnings, hopefully tomorrow will be a good day. I'll keep my fingers crossed. And before I forget, Ah Beng has been really nice. Hahaha, he's going to share with me his notes. Nice right? ;)

okkkkk, update again. byebyebyebyebye.

Day ONE

2009-10-19T18:14:00.003+08:00

school CMI la!! ):

It's only first day of school, but it feels like damn long already lei. whyyyy? lessons all damn boring lor. Lucky I have Yanling to crap with me. Christina is also in the same class as me. (: Other then that, I still don't like school la. Damn! I'm already looking forward to week 10 (holidays).

Damn sian. Most probably meeting the girls at Tampines for dinner on Thursday. It's only day 1 but I'm already feeling restless. How?! When projects start pouring, I'll be D-E-A-D.

Alright. I'll update again soon, when I'm not lazy to transfer the photos to laptop. Above photo is last week one. Damn long can. -__-

Updates!

2009-10-13T14:06:00.002+08:00

It was a blast!

Went to Maurice's 21st celebration on Saturday. Totally had fun catching up with all of them. Ah Beng still the same. hahaha! He was smashed by cake. No extra clothes, yet we weren't let off. ALL of us were smashed by cake too. Nice. AH BENG jiu shi Ah Beng. HAHAHA!

Less than a week before school starts. Totally not looking forward about it because... the modules all so disgusting. How? Tell me how? Who can save me? WHO? ):

What I can confirm is, I'll definately miss my darling colleagues. So used to working everyday with NICE people. I hate stiff environment where everyone is fake, unlike here, it's the other way round. I'm lovin' it!

Alright, I'll update soon with office cam-whorrings(last week's). Didn't had a chance to snap any photos this week yet. Till then~

Spare Time

2009-10-09T08:50:00.002+08:00

Yiqi, Xuelian & me(in most of the photos)
can dont love them meh? ;)

One more week!

I'm having fun at work everyday, thanks to Cam-whorring. hahaha. I have nothing much to update about. Let the above photo do the talking. Ohohoh, we were cam-whorring halfway when John came back. So we snap a photo with him. Find him familiar? go google... (:

And and and my new classmate very enthu. I like. You know who you are. *wink wink*

PS: photo uploaded was taken on Wednesday.

timetable OUT.

2009-10-07T08:31:00.003+08:00

At Penang Hill --- GuanYin Temple

Just a short and quick entry.

Timetable is OUT! This means that school's reopening. Just one word,"SIAN". But, I'm in the same class as Miss Koh Yanling. Lucky not?!?! hahaha. Even elective also the same... or should I say, our timetable is the SAME! (: This news totally cheer me up can! No more worrying about being alone in class. Good good good good...

OMG, it is only 8.40am now. I am so sleepy... *yawns*

web web web designnnnnn

2009-10-05T21:33:00.003+08:00

taken at Siam Temple in Penang --- Reclining Buddha

I'm finally done with the new company's website. Sooooo happy for myself. And I still have one more website to do. That website will be for some events. I'll upload when the poster is confirmed. :D

So anyway, Xuelian did the banner(the one with the globe spinning) for the website, and I did the rest. Muhahaha! She really did help me alot can! Without her, I think the website can only be up this week lor.

Although I still have a list of things to get done before next Friday, but I'm happy, or rather contented of what I have know. I am totally looking forward to next Friday. Not because of last day, but the party-ing I'll have with the girls and maybe bosses? haha. I'm really glad to know these girls, namely, xuelian, apple, celyn, cheryl(zhenyi), daphne(yiqi)... Without them, the office wouldn't be so fun to be in. (:

and... ....

2 more weeks, less than 14 days, school reopens... how?!?!? I'm telling myself, just another 4 more months of suffering and tadah! I get my diploma, after 3 longggg years. Totally looking forward to next yearrrrr.

okokokokokokokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, I'll update again sooooon. (:

what a feeling...

2009-09-30T21:08:00.002+08:00

Next to the Hotel we stayed at Penang

Mum have decided to celebrate birthday for me next year. wahahaha! I know it's still early to say, still got at least half a year, but well, I am very excited about it. With regards to the venue, it'll be a wonderful place!! Cannot hide my excitement manxzxzx!

School's starting again. I need to get use to it all over again. I'm so used to working life already. Money don't come easy, and it runs out very quickly. Oh No No... Totally don't feel like going to school. It just reminds me of what JL's words. Projects piling up can kill. Yanling, we can suffer together. ): At least, I have you...

Anyway, there's so many things happening at work. And did I mention that Feng Shui Master Helen Ong is a very nice lady. Had a nice time speaking to her the other day.

Alright then, update again soon. ;)

Broke all over again. ):

2009-09-27T16:18:00.003+08:00

I don't think I'll do any updates with loads of photos anytime soon. But well, maybe i'll try to put a photo for every entry to at least show an image. So, above is an overall for Penang Trip. Will upload 1 image everytime i update.

Anyway, I really dislike staying at home. But well, I'm really very tired.

Yesterday, I met mei, kok, dap. Shopped for ahbeng's present. After that, I went to Dhoby Ghaut. Supposed to meet fangying but my phone died on me. Lucky me, I bumped into Lyna when the line cut off. I was really DAMN x10000 lucky can!! So, I called fangying using lyna's phone. Was suppose to meet her today instead but postponed to next saturday. :D:D So, I continued shopping abit thinking of going home after getting mum's present. I did some shopping at cotton on. CHEAP DEALS can! haha. shhhs... so, I decided to buy a pair of earring or ring or necklace for mum. To cut everything short... Because I can't decide whether to get a diamond+sapphire ring or a pair of diamond earrings. End up I paid $800plus(almost $900) for... Don't ask me which one, because I regret instantly after making payment. Should have just buy something less expensive for mum cause it's the heart that counts isn't it? My pay, just flew off like that. Can don't regret meh?! ):

Anyway, I bumped into Hermes after that. She was suppose to meet me for movie today but she has F1 tickets. So, we ended up went to watch Movie together since... both of us were free. HAHAHA!

My weekends schedules are sooooo packed. I'm not sure if I'm free next sunday. YuenChung hasn't confirm with me yet. -____-

And then again, I'll have to eat grass when school starts. Need to start saving all over again. I suddenly don't feel like studying full-time next year. Feel like working instead, and study part-time. Should I?

Perhaps...

2009-09-23T13:36:00.005+08:00

I shouldn't have boosted about how good my life is. Now, it's like screwed up here and there. I'm not talking about work. Working is always good. No stress, and people like John&Mrhong <-- bosses around totally cheer the whole working atmosphere. So back to the main topic. I think other than work, I have nothing much to share about. Working has been taking up a whole load of my time. I have no time for friends, and even family. Thus, I cut down on going out during weekends and accompany family instead. But seems like things were then taken for granted.

I don't understand. It's like no one just wants to side me. They are either sitting on the fence or just stand on the other side. I am very lost. Maybe it's me, but now, I prefer staying in office than to be at home during the weekends. I would rather go out to meet friends for movies etc than to rest at home. I'm lack of sleep but whenever I wake up late, I get scoldings for waking up late and get blames like "nobody ask you to sleep late last night" and whatsoever.

I have no rights. As time ticks by, I feel that freedom reduces. Yesterday "He" said I should enjoy myself. It's okay to stay out late. But when i go out too often "He" complains to "Her" and "She" scolds me. I really don't understand. Why must "You" complain to "Her" and not tell me directly?

It's like the trip. I remembered super clearly that "He" said okay. But he complains to "Her" again saying that "He" didn't. I am very pissed off that I don't even want to talk to "Him" now. "They" say I am not suppose to leave Singapore. I am very pissed & upset. Everything is pilling up.

I'm not going to talk about this anymore. Anyway, I am very sorry, dears... ):

{Edited//update!
Yesterday, I manage to push these at the back of my head and enjoyed abit. Bosses, Colleagues and I went to Shangrila Hotel for Tom n Toms Coffee launching in Singapore. The champange was good. Soothing and makes me feel better. Didn't eat much there. Saw some Korean Celebrity and Miss Korea 2009. She is reallyyyy pretty I took photo with Chen Huihui together with John & Daphne(intern from NP). I was sabotage by Johm. -____- After entertaining people, we went to Partyworld! Treated by boss can!! :D Xue Lian and I keep singing la. Actually John also sang lor. He has good vocal. I've lost my voice because I practically shouted for our last song. I feel damn shiock. It's like venting everything out! I had fun. Totally enjoyed and John says he'll bring us there again. I have A-W-E-S-O-M-E bosses.

untitled

2009-09-22T11:08:00.001+08:00

My hopes are dashed.

i am lack of time ):

2009-09-20T21:15:00.002+08:00

I am suppose to meet hermes today for movie, but i met cheryl instead. yes, postponed our meetup. then i was suppose to meet hermes next sunday but i have to postpone again because i am going to KL. so, i can only meet her next next sunday which is also the first sunday of october and 2nd sunday of october before a wedding dinner which we have to attend. I am so very sorry but i have no choice. (:

There're quite alot of things I haven't blogged about. Life have been pretty interesting other than working. Well, working is not boring at all with Mr Wong(i feel like typing his full chinese name but i think i better not) around. He brightens my day without fail due to the way he speaks and etc. Moreover, I have things to do and busy at work most of the time. I don't even have time to fuss over the lousy connection at the new office. G-R-E-A-T.

I am very sure that i've not uploaded photos for veryyyyy long. That's because I have no time to do so. Partly lazy? hahaha. I am totally looking forward to our karaoke session at partyworld. When i say our it means colleagues and bosses. Aiya, whole company can? haha. Mr Wong ask me to organise lor. At first I kept bugging him about it, now it's the other way round. Boss is weird.

Anyway, I had fun today. Went to SAM flea. Accompanied Cheryl thus I didn't bring clothes there to sell. Well, I had a great day with cheryl, von & dingling(i'm suppose it's spelt like that?) I'm actually suppose to meet Cheryl on friday to visit Esther but I guess we have to postpone it to 2nd week of Oct, due to me as I can't make it this Friday and she can't make it next friday. ):

Well well well, i love my life for now and i am totally not looking forward to school reopen. Don't remind me about that.

Upcoming "events"
- Class Chalet (i'm only staying for 1 night)
- Shangri-La Hotel _____ launch (it's a commecial event - will update more after that)
- KL trip with dears
- Partyworld ~~~ (although need to wait for "laoban" - hanick to be back from europe)
- Movie Marathon with Hermes
and so many more... .... ...

Omg, damn excited can! so many things happening. :D:D:D

Hopefully I'll update some photos soon... No promises~ (:

hellooo.

2009-09-14T14:40:00.001+08:00

on hiatus till end of the week. (:

busy + lazy

2009-09-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

Boohoooo!

Totally busy with work. This weekend is suppose to be relax but seems that parents have plans on quite a number of things. Time flies, it's already sunday evening and there's work tomorrow. I'm not dread going to work. Just that I don't like waking up early. Travelling to expo totally is not fun.

I'll update on what's been happening(other than working) and Penang trip soon. I've already uploaded the photos on photobucket. hehehe! No mood to update now. Hopefully I'll update tomorrow larrr~ (:

Greetings from Penang (:

2009-09-06T11:26:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone... (:

Okay, maybe no one cause my blog looks dead. Anyway, I brought along my laptop and I'm like super bored now cause we're actually meeting my cousin & family for dim sum later. Butbutbut we're still waiting for them to pick us up at the hotel.

Oh oh, this hotel is like damn good can. Sea view, big room and and FREE broadband access. I like manxzxzxz. Just now, my family and I walked to the reclining buddha temple. Took some photos ate breadfast and came back. The sea view is actually pretty boring because it's low tide. Ugly low tide can. Damn disgusting... I'll post some photos up when... I'm not lazy to upload them. My camera is in my bag. Very lazy to take it out and transfer the photos. lol. The tide seems to be coming up. Gonna snap some pictures of the high tide too.

Did some shopping yesterday. I only bought a clip and a series of anime. hahaha. You know Cardcaptor Sakura? I love it so much and they're selling is like damn cheap. Only S$20 for the whole anime plus 2 movies. Cheap not? hahaha. Yes, and I bought it. Meiyi also want kay, I'll go back and get it for her if i'm free tonight. It's from is big shopping mall(not very big but definately bigger than our normal malls locally) just next to the hotel.

This hotel is loved. Room is so cozy that make me want to sleep now. Alright, I'll update again later. (:

Exhausted

2009-09-04T16:06:00.001+08:00

So many things going on but I'm lack of T-I-M-E.

I know my blog has been very boring. No photos and what not. But well, I have no time to upload them. Or rather, no time to merge them together although i have the photos with me. I normally do not upload more than 1 photo for a post(since like dont know when). Like i said, normally. So there can be exceptions, probably not now though. (:

Today is MingGuang's Birthday celebration. I'm not sure is it the exact day or not, but well, Happy 20th. (: I'm sorry I can join you people. As for class chalet, I'm still not sure if I wanna appear. Shall decide when I'm back?

And and and company will be shifting to Changi on Monday, how great... New intern's first day and she have to report to work at Changi everyday. Damn sad. As for me, I'm bringing all my barang barang home today. :D

I hope I can snap many many photos in my camera for this trip to Penang. Although it's the 3rd time going, but PHOTOS can never be too little. Right? (:

Okay, I'm really getting very exhausted now, not sure why. Probably because I am like damn full now. Andandand super bored cause Celyn is on leave today and Apple is out of office. Wah lau, then sian... Somemore got certain things cannot confirm and I have yet pack my stuffs for tomorrow's flight. Wow, Great! I'm pretty sure I'll forget things that I need to bring with me.

Anyway, I will be uncontactable from 5 - 8 Sept. I don't intend to bring my phone there. Hopefully we have a chance to get away from the URBAN CITY. Relax &&& Seafood. OMG, Love the seafood so much!! hahaha.

Got to get some little things done now. Update when I'm back! (:

k-box !

2009-09-03T11:03:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was work. After that, went k-box with angel, yan, ben and jackson. It was fun! Apart from something that happen towards the end...

Well, maybe good things don't last? Near to the end of session, angel realise there's something wrong with the bill. Hmmm, I'm not sure about it since I reached late. But as usual, I just can't shut my mouth and let them do the talking. I am chatty (you forgot?)! hahaha. So, I actually did spoke when the Captain of that outlet came in. He was nice, friendly and all, unlike the receptionist and another female "rubbish".

After the whole thing(of course we won! *very proud about it*), I cabbed home(reached home exactly at 10pm) since that stupid bill actually wasted our singing and exceeded my going home time. On the cab, Lynnette called. Telling me about her posting for attachment. Awwww, it's okay to be alone my dear. I'm(and most of us) also alone for my attachment. So apart from that, I actually feel kind of bad with my "speech" while speaking to the captain. Like keep shooting him and not giving way. I was telling Lynnette about this and her reply was," aren't you always like that?"

Am I always so mean? ):

You know, I really feel kind of bad towards him, but at the same time, I must be firm on my stand. That was why I didn't give way. Whatever it is, I am not going to go back to K-box Plaza anymore, unless no choice(that was what i told the captain too). And I still think that the captain is really nice la. Should actually compliment him(i don't know his name btw). Thumbs up for him. (:

So, this is a lesson we learnt. I actually learn a new way to be customer. Yes, I can only be customer and not be a person who does customer relations because I will get my retributions in the near future. :/ I've also told myself countless of times that I will never ever work on jobs related to customer service. LOL!

Anywayyyyyy, We'll go k or partyworld another time soon alright? Not this outlet la~~ haha. Btw, I reallyyyy had fun and I hope you people had fun too. Next trip will be KL with them plus mel(haven't met him for like the longest time ever. and hopefully he really can join us.)!!! woohoooo~~~ :D:D

Send me photos photos photos pleaseeee... ;)

I am damn slow... -___-

2009-09-01T17:58:00.005+08:00

I think I am like damn retarded la.

Just now, there is this caucasian came into office for modelling interview. He got those misty eyes lor. Cannot really see how he look when he went into the room. When he came out, I took a more careful look. Overall, okok only. HAHA. so seldom can see guys here lor. you know, those not bad looking and in the early twenties. *beams*

So, while that caucasian was having his interview, this guy whom look really familiar to me came in to office. He sat at the sofa there, near the photocopier. I was copying some documents. I practically ignored him at first on first look. But when I look at him after that, I found him really familiar. He has the "paisae" look when he look at me. As usual, because I still did not know who he is, I pretend I was busy doing my things. After that, I went back to my place to sit and I started thinking. Suddenly, I remember who he was. Ok, I know I am like damn slow because Apple knew who he was at first look. This guy is actually Nat Ho. He look quite different from tv/photos lor. His face is slightly rounder & he looks better on TV. The caucasian better looking than him. This is actually a bias statement. Well, totally no offence about him though.

Alright, I am doing OT today again. Got some things to change. Update again!! :D

yawn~

2009-09-01T10:26:00.000+08:00

I never seem to get enough sleep. SO sleepy now. I have nothing to do at work. FREE PAY again...

So, today's apple's first day. But she's sitting so farrrrrr away. sian half. I have nothing to blog about. This week, will be home after work everyday. Too tired to go out. I feel sleepy like all the time... -_____- moreover, i have no money. Because it's the end of month.

I am adnormal. People normally feel rich end of the month because of payday, but for me, it's the other way round, because i have bills to pay. Not by tens, but by hundreds. I need to control, I know I know.

Can't wait for weekends to arrive. I will definately sleep on the plane this saturday because our damn flight is 10plus in the morning, which means I need to wake up at 7am? OMG!

Alright, nothing to blog about. Update when I get hold of the photos. ;)

The proposal!! :D

2009-08-31T15:08:00.002+08:00

I love this movie! (:

I am totally in love with Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds. They are so adorable. Okay, a very weird description but they are like damn cute la! Ohohohoho, and I love the heels that Sandra Bullock wore! The black heels with red soles. So Prettyyyyy! Anyway, the movie is so light-hearted and some funny scenes that made me really Laugh Out Loud. I had a shock when I read on wikipedia that Sandra Bullock is forty-six. like OMG! She doesn't look her age can. Still as HOT! I love the movie so much that I have this urge to buy the DVD. I shouldn't right? I know, I'll get from the "pirate kings". *evil laughs*

I think I'm overly crazy about it. I'll try to overcome it ok? ;) I am actually looking forward to this weekend! SEAFOOD FEAST... can't wait alreadyyyyy! Making me drool at the thought of it manxzxz.

Okay, I actually promise myself that I'll go on diet after I'm back from Penang. Why not now? Because if I start dieting now, I cannot eat as much seafood lor! *grins* okokokokokokok, dieting is a must. I have been putting on weight non-stop since the day I came back from Beijing. I must mark an end to it. PROMISE. Friends, support me kay? You must stop me from eating fattening food when we're out together. And NO MORE fast food for me! Tolerate through a month or 2 then maybe I can be less strict after that. No matter what, Dieting will start on 9th Sept.

Boss is back and we've meeting with interior designer. Update again!

Motivation is all I need, for now.

screw msn. argh!

2009-08-31T10:47:00.000+08:00

MSN doesn't let me sign in! SOOOOO irritated now. And this bloody blogger is showing it's UGLY layout again. Nothing is going right. I'm late for work again today! How bad can this be? I should say, I have never been early or on time for work ever since attachment ended. I seem to never get enough sleep these days. Something is wrong, somewhere... So heat up today.

What's wrong?!?!

Weekend... weeee!~~

2009-08-30T11:03:00.002+08:00

Lovely Meetup!! (:

Weekends end so fast. Just a blink of eyes, *poof* my weekend is ending... Yesterday was fun! It's been really long since i saw them(too many names to list) and even met Yanling *beams*. The fun times we had together were great memories. As usual, you'll hear about some shocking news which sometimes we say "unfair". But there's nothing we can do, right yanling? It is only when we have such talks then we realise so many things are happening without us even knowing. Very irritating indeed.

Anyway, I had fun last night. We'll have countdown at JL's place at the end of year alright?! hahaha. MAHJONG(2 tables-requsted by meiyi) and CHIT-CHATS!! TALKINGS and EATINGS! ohhh, i miss these so muchhhhh. So looking forward to it already. I won't ps this time la. JL keep saying i everytime ps. -__- Ahbeng say that it's still early, well, we should plan ahead what. CNY is already planned too(damn kiasu, i know), just not confirmed. yaya, CNY is like damn far away. That can wait...

All and all, yesterday was GREAT. JJ had birthday bash. Haha. Cakes smashed by JL and Ahbeng! damn funny. oops oops, shouldn't laugh, i'll get retribution. :/

And I just realise that the upcoming weekend, i'll be flying to Penang again(so fast!). Nothing new lei. But, will be out of our URBAN city. I should be a little excited. Hopefully can get some steals there. And I and i am looking super forward for the SEAFOOD FEAST there lor. My love for SEAFOOD never dies! *grins*

Okay, I'll update with photos when CQ, CW send us the photos. that time the photos we took at ECP, I still not yet get lor. -__- 3 months already. Time really flies... BYE!

P.S: I've put back my Cbox as requested. (:

Weekend is just tomorrow! (:

2009-08-28T12:52:00.002+08:00

Picnic @ Botanic Garden

I've finally got hold of some photos. Actually, I rip them from Facebook. hahaha. Yan, Angel and Esther tagged me the photos. So, I'll host up the picnic ones first since it's a week ago. Yes, sounds long right?

Meeting mei and hui later. Go pray then dinner and home. Tomorrow will be buying JJ's present then to his chalet. I wonder how am I going to get home from downtown east. So far lei, take bus, OMG 1 hr then can reach home. Sianxzxzxz. Someone should get me a car. ):

Update again! Goodbye...~

No photos. Booohooo... ):

2009-08-26T16:35:00.003+08:00

NO IMAGE

I have no photos to blog. ): Anyway, I've got my pay. Hahaha! and as usual, more than half are use to pay bills. Argh!

Anyway, I had a great time with Cheryl and Esther yesterday. Esther and I will fly to Perth to visit Cheryl next year! :D So excited!! Oh and I took time off yesterday. Left work at 4pm. Wooohooo~ No pay deducted also. Damn good.

I can't wait for Sunday!! :D:D:D

argh!

2009-08-24T16:25:00.006+08:00

Bloody hell! Damn angry with myself now. Finally done with the 3D thingy already then my image disappear. WTH, and i realised i didn't save it. Yesyesyes, I am so smart. -____-

BORED like hell!

I don't feel like doing it now. Gonna rot abit before redoing it again. And i am so going to ikea this week to get 1 more rectangle(starlight) in red and 1 more star(starlight) in red. Erm, maybe no, 2 rectangles instead? ahhh, i don't know. Can't make up my mind. ):

Anyway i've passed the star(starlight) to my bosses respectively already. teehee :D

I have nothing to blog about. I'm leading a boring life now. Sianxzxzxz. I'm meeting Cheryl and Esther tomorrow! So looking forward to the meeting. :D:D

Alright, gonna continue rotting. Blog again! (:

Out with family~

2009-08-23T19:52:00.002+08:00

Whole day out with family. Went alot of places including IKEA! I bought 4 Star lights and 1 standing light.(paid by me!) Hmmm, very hard to describe. I'll upload the photos when I put them up in my room. zOMG, so excited. Btw, 2 star lights are for my bosses and 1 is for my brother. :D So, only 1 rectangle and 1 star for myself. See, I am so nice. Money just FLY~~~ so easily. This week will be spending quite alot. Need to start to control.

End of month is approaching means creditcard bills are coming. Payday on tuesday but more than half will be gone. Damn sad. Need to start saving all over again. I always overspend when I save abit. This bad habit should be changed. I know, I'll try... Alright?

Picnic!

2009-08-22T20:18:00.001+08:00

Picnic at Botanic Garden was fun. Not really about the food, but the chit chattings, cam-whorring, and cards games. It's been quite sometime since we(angel,yan, ben, jackson) met. It was a little disappointing that mel couldn't join us in the end because he fell sick. I'm not saying it's his fault or what. He also don't want to fall sick what. ANYWAY, we must plan another gathering really soon. And the next time, all SIX of us must be present ok? :D loves~

Photos will be up soon.(Girls, send me photos ya? *wink wink*)

Tomorrow, i'll most probably be resting at home since i am feeling super restless. I've still not really recovered from the heavy head(should drink lesser in future) yet. I'm working on Monday. $$$$$ i'm coming!~~ & i'm so looking forward to meeting Esther and Cheryl on Tuesday evening for dinner. Haven't met Esther since secondary school graduation day and she went Switzerland soon after, and i haven't met cheryl since she came back from Indonesia. :D Next week will be a busy busy week/ends.

Alright, off to watch teevee. (:

Weekends! (:

2009-08-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

"Thank You for your help for the past 12 weeks. Thank You very much."

This is what i keep hearing from my boss and that ~~b**tard~~. Okay, i no long have hatred towards him(b**tard) anymore. Until he does something rude again, i'm totally fine for now.

Last night was insane. Because boss H is Korean, we have to kind of follow the culture. Not totally follow, but when they pour volka/wine for you, it is a must to drink. I've never drank so much in my life. Boss J got a can of 7-up, knowing that the 40% volka is too strong for Celyn and I thus mixing for us. After the bottle of volka finally finish, the order the korean wine. That was much better. No need to mix can drink already. hahaha! And I did not cab home. Celyn's husband sent me home. How nice of them right? So anyway, when I reach home, I was already half dead. Bathe and all, then went to SLEEP like almost immediately. Head so heavy, stomach filled with liquid(kept drinking tea to prevent myself from becoming drunk)... SLEEP was all i needed. Apple didn't join us. But nevermind. Bosses say we will have another dinner soon. Nice bosses! (: No photos because i left my camera in office. -_-" No need to praise me for this. haha! At least i remembered my handphone.

Alright, got to go get ready for picnic. (:

last day of IAP and it's Friday!

2009-08-21T12:10:00.005+08:00

My favourite day of the week:

FRIDAY

Bosses are so busy with their meetings with clients and projects on upcoming events. Well, but they are bringing ALL of us(inclu. the ~~bastard~~) to Korean BBQ Restaurant for dinner tonight. For the fact that, it's my last day of IAP. They are like the best bosses ever! Don't you just totally agree with me?! :D

On the other hand, I'll have to eat dinner together with that ~~bastard~~ la. Nevermind. Just ignore him. &&&&& I hope Apple can join us. ):

ANYWAYYYY, i forgot to get the hotdogs yesterday. But, I asked mum to help me buy already. haha!! and I'm having difficulty using this new phone. Grrrrr! Getting quite agitated sometimes. I need to find some tutorial for it man. Don't laugh at me hor! Damn rude.

I'm free like a birdddd today. Never do anything related to job since morning other then email-ing some people. Although my pay is like $2.50/hr (celyn calculated for me) which is like super low, I'm doing like so little things(most of the time:/).

My tummy is growling. I'm hungry. Gonna pester Celyn to go for lunch now. :D

Thursday

2009-08-20T10:01:00.008+08:00

When Thursday arrives, means the weekends are nearing.

Just one word can describe it all. A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

Guess what, I gladly reached office at 8.45am. Cool not? Aren't you just proud of me? haha! (: I've told boss H about my asking pay for part-time min. is $6/hr. And if he loves me more, he should give me more. :D Hahaha!

boss: so if i don't give you more means i don't like you?
me: *laughs* ya, something like that.
boss: hmmm, it's a tough decision for me then. need to do decision-making.
me: yes! *laughs again*

He was also telling me that he bought a small gift for me, just that he can only pass it to me next week. Oh, he shouldn't have. Not like tomorrow is my last day. Just last day of IAP only.

Today will be a happy day if that ~~bastard~~ doesn't come in. I hope I won't see him everyday lor.

On a happy note, I bought 2 dresses online yesterday. Can't wait to receive them!! $46 flew just like that. Nevermind, happy can already. and did I mention, I bought the LGjoy already. cost me $298. My upcoming pay cheque already used even before I get my hands on it. Wow!~ praise me.. haha.

Off to get some minor work done. Shall blog later~

*//Edited: ~~Bastard~~ in the house. yucks! lazy like fuck somemore act hardworking. Disgusting piece of shit. *smelly*

bastard!

2009-08-19T18:01:00.005+08:00

I am damn pissed.
and i bloody mean it.

stop reading if you dislike vulgarities. I'm sorry but my patience has reach its limit.

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Fucking asshole. I think that these people who thinks they can get PR in Singapore is a big fuck. My ass can. Knn! This cheena guy, whom seems all so nice in the first place when i first came in is a selfish piece of ~~bastard~~ shit. I am so damn pissed with him. I think people from his country who comes here have the same fucking pattern of being selfish & rude. thinking they can speak english is BIG FUCK? damn you. You can never blend nor become one of us. You just dont belong here. get the fuck back to your own country. You speak lousy english. Stop speaking to me in your lousy english. you suck. Simple task yet you cant bloody do it yourself. Are you stupid or dumb? You expect others to do it for you? You think having the post as Manager is big fuck? That's just a Name. N-A-M-E. What you do and what you get doesnt show anything related to this. BIG FUCK AGAIN? I know people from your country. nice and kind and well-mannered and so on... but you and those fuckers who actually came here thinking it is big fuck actually have damn bloody spoilt the reputation of the people in your country. SUCKER!

I hate it when you ate my biscuits without my permission. What's even more? You damn bloody left it on my desk, EMPTY WRAPPER and you dont have fucking hands to throw it away. Do you even have the damn manners to ask? Ill-mannered piece of shit. Knn. You must be thinking it's just a packet of biscuits but dammit. He bloody left it on my table. EMPTY! Bastard!

And the other day, he asked one of my colleague to go to a place to check out some technical problem. My poor colleague, not knowing where the exact place is, asked him in a very nice tone. He bloody answered him saying "aren't you singaporean? you should know!" And my poor colleague have to walk back to his seat and find out. WTF is with that singaporean thing? As a singaporean, I must damn bloody know EVERY SINGLE place and road in Singapore? Don't know say don't know. Nobody will bother to laugh at you. So free to laugh meh? Moreover, you have your BIG FUCK PR what. PR lei, don't know the places, I feel so sad for people who couldnt get the chance of getting this PR and you this UGLY personality person got it. How unfair. KNN.

He wasn't around yesterday and it felt damn AWESOME. The whole of today he wasn't around too. It felt damn good. But when he came in around 5plus, he damn bloody asked me to do him a favour yet demanding it. I keep backfacing him and answer his questions because i don't think there is a need to look at him while answering him for good manners because he is fucking x100000 ill-mannered. he is one big sucker + bastard + shit + [any fucking words you can add]!

I told him, you know then you do lor. Guess what was his fucking answer? He said," whatever it is, just think of a way." WTF. so what if i know how to do... i just dont want to fucking do it for him. KNS, but since he said it was for both my lovable bosses, I had no choice but to do. After that, i totally ignore him till now.

Talking about ignoring that sucker, like i mentioned, he wasn't around the whole of yesterday which was damn shiok. And he spoke to me on skype. My big name is there and he damn bloody spelt my name wrongly. Anyone in the world can spell my name wrongly except bastards and suckers whom i hate! It is a sin to spell my name wrongly if you are blacklisted. So, i practically just right click and close the whole skype program pretending that i didn't see it.

Like i've said before, I don't dislike/hate a person with no reasons. Any misunderstandings can be solved. But this is fuckingly not misunderstanding. It is pure selfishness.

In conclusion, there is a bastard in this office. I adore everyone else but this bastard. he should just get back to his country.

P.S: i didn't state where he is from. but you should know where he's from after reading because this kind of sucker are always from that country what. You know, those whom they can speak English like very big fuck. Whatever it is, I'm not trying to be coutry-cist. Just, that bastard really pissed me off.

(:

2009-08-19T09:44:00.002+08:00

blogger is normal today!

hahaha! small medium large

so fun!

okay, anyway, it's wednesday! Weekends are nearing. I have some errands to run. I'll blog again later. (:

-_-"

2009-08-18T10:38:00.001+08:00

Blogger is only normal yesterday. Today, it is back to it's lousy layout. dumb dumb one lor.

I am damn bored today. Bosses went for meeting at KL this morning and will only be back in the evening. And I have nothing to do. I'm done with all my work. R-O-T. So sianxzxzxz!

Oh oh, did I mention that I reach office at 10.15am today. HAHAHA! I think I ~~rock~~ diamond can! I am so going to leave office at 6.30pm SHARP today. Yesterday I was damn good, I left office at 7.30pm. No, I wasn't rushing to get my work done, I stayed back to accompany Apple(our new colleague & she's really hyper!) for meeting with Boss J. Yes, that is about all. And the damn office blackout at around 7.20pm. Both bosses were around. They were joking around and acting ghostly to frighten us. How "interesting". -_-"

I have nothing to do now. AND I miss Cheryl! ~~Can't wait for her to be back.~~Cheryl is back!!! (: okay, we need to meetup like REAL sooooo0n!

I am so looking forward to this weekend. :D:D:D *wink wink*

Did you realise I remove the tagboard? Since it has been so dead, I must well remove it. When I have the mood to change a new skin then I'll put it back. I am dying of bordem. I need entertainments!!!! ):

yes? no?

2009-08-17T21:12:00.001+08:00

身在福中不知福。。。
i feel that i do not appreciate what i have now. i need to learn all over again. but will there be time & chance given for me to change?

FINAL WEEEEEEEEEK!

2009-08-17T12:17:00.003+08:00

a day with little money spent!

hellooooo world!

Blogger seems to be able to work normally today. I see a normal page. I can upload photo(although size small) here, add colours for words and change the size for the fonts. yay!~

While waiting for Hermes yesterday, I went bugis street. Okay, i still couldn't stand the crowds at the ground floor. Proceeded to the 2nd floor(air-con!) and was bored to the extreme. Thus, i did classic pedicure while waiting for her. haha! When she finally came, we walked around parco bugis then headed to marina square via citylink. Had xinwang and chat abit. She got member card! hahaha. discount~~ We then decided to go to Marina Barrage since both of us haven't went there before. We talked about almost everything, from b*tches to people around. hahaha!

Apart from that, we have already planned to meet to go for the $10++ inclu. free flow of drinks Karoaoke session at Chinatown soon. She was telling me the songs there are more updated than K-box, just that the mic and sound system for small room also "worth $10" standard. hahaha! But she said the $10 is definately value for money! Anticipating already~~

It's week 12 which means, it's the final week of IAP. Well, it doesn't make any difference to me. But nononononono! Pay will increase. haha. $$$$$$$$$$$$$ and i can start my shopping spreeeeee. I have been eye-ing on many pairs of heels/shoes/sandals. OMGOMG. i am an extreme shoes lover. I need to clear my shoes cupboard sooo0n!

And and and, I'm rotting now because i'm done with the 3D floorplan for the new office. Added in the LCD tv and etc... already! Oh, and my evaluation form is all EXCELLENT can! hahaha! I think when LO sees it, he wouldn't believe his eyes, or he'll think i forge it out. :/

Okay, I'm feeling hungry already. Gonna pester my colleague to go out for lunch. My tummy is growling. ):

*//Edited
I am damn bored now. It's 6.20pm. I can actually leave office now. But nono, boss is coming back by 6.30pm. And if I leave earlier, he'll know. I have nothing to do. 我好闷啊!

Final lap?

2009-08-16T12:08:00.003+08:00

To mark an end for IAP...

I cut BANGS again!

haha. Yes, exactly the same as what I did previously to mark an end for Yr2Sem2. In weeks to come, I'm sure my fringe will grow back to normal. Well, I've decided to do something to my hair at the end of the year. Before that, I need Money!

And I'm so going to Taiwan with Hermes next year. I'm going to start saving. And graduation trip with family to California! I need to save for it too because I heard that the branded goods there are CHEAPPPPP! hahahaha! I need to get ready some spare cash for Shopping!! zOMG!! I am all so excited about it already.

What's left for me to do now is WORK. Work = Money!

Alright, got to get ready to go SHOPPING with hermes. Bye all!~

TGIF! =D

2009-08-14T11:27:00.001+08:00

Cousins~~

Is it my problem or is it blogger that the layout seems crappy? I need to type in html codes in order to put the image up. -__- Stupid dumb dumb!

Anywayyyyyy, before I get busy with my work, I'm here to blog! hahahaha! Can you believe it?! I FORGOT TO BRING MY PHONE TO OFFICE. again!!!! omg! Damn sian can! I think something is seriously wrong with me somewhere. like wtf wtf. How can I forget my phone so often?! How the hell did I manage to forget manxzxzxz! I think I'm like one of the very rare gem on Earth. I ~~rock~~ diamond can!! Okay, whatever it is, I'm phone-less again. ):

Alright, enough with my ranting.

I came across a very disgusting photo of mine which I took last year during CNY with my cousins. Compare it with the top one. I suck, TOTALLY. Whatever! Click here to view.

Okokokokokokok! I'm going to restart my laptop and start getting my jobs done! I think my laptop seriously need a reformat. When am I going to reformat it?!

New Job-scope

2009-08-13T14:17:00.002+08:00

Finally, it's out! (:

Since yesterday, I was busy learning this 3D thingy to be done for the floorplan for the new office at Changi. I've mosaic some parts as this should be private and confidential right? So anyway, I've actually manage to learn how to use SKETCHUP(a free software from google) in 2 hours and I've finally finish the whole floorplan. What's left for me to do is add in the furnitures, multi-screens, LCD TV & etc.

I've actually made a simple collarge for the photoshoot images. I'll put it up soon. Alright off to continue with Sketchup. ;)

EDIT: just got a call from Boss J. He ask me go Wisma now. Is this good or bad?

): sadness within

2009-08-12T23:47:00.004+08:00

Emo-ing

I was watching tv and I caught an ~~advertisment~~ or rather a news on this 80plus old grandma got cheated $400. This $400 is to be used for her daughter's medical fee. I saw her tears roll down her cheeks. Makes me feel so sad about it. I don't know why, but it seems like I can feel the pain within her. I really feel like helping her, in any possible way. I feel damn sad now.

Looking at her reminds me of grandmama. It's been almost 3 years since grandmama past away. You know what? I am still living in regrets. For not visiting/chatting her for almost a year. When she was lying in hospital, I didn't had a chance to speak to her because she was in coma. During that time, I do not feel anything much about regrets, just pure sadness because I've lost my grandma, the great lady who took care of me since I was baby. To add on I was known as her favourite grand-daugther. Aunts dislike me because of this fact. One word for them, JEALOUSY. Well, that's already the past. So, as time goes by, I slowly realised the regrets I have. No matter how truely sorry I am, this is something that can never be forgiven or changed. Sometimes, I really hope that I can turn back time. I know that's never going to happen. It's just a tiny hope in my heart. What I have learnt is... If your grandparents are still around, do spend time with them. Especially if they are the ones who actually took care of you since young. Although I am not very close with my maternal grandparents, I'll visit them at least once a month. For the fact that I do not want history to repeat itself. Such things CANnot and MUST not repeat twice. Don't make the same mistake. Such mistakes can never be forgiven nor forgotten.

Regrets are scars that no plastic surgeon in the world can remove.

Damn pissed!

2009-08-12T10:46:00.001+08:00

My blood is boiling! Super pissed now. This morning totally sucks! F*uck x100000! To add on, I was late for work. Almost an hour late!

the difference in time

2009-08-11T11:19:00.004+08:00

Look at the changes!

My family actually went for photoshoot 2 years ago. Look at the difference! I think having photoshoot is like damn damn fun can! the makeup & all makes you ~~look~~ feel pretty. I think no matter how ugly is that person, the person can still look pretty after a makeover! Okay, personally, I think the makeup artist did a very good job for me this time round. So much better than I expected. I did not take any solo shots. I'll not go into much details about it till i actually get my ass down to collate the photos together. I'm still feeling very lazy to size the photos. 140plus photos. OMG, just the thought of that make me procrastinate all over again.

I am feeling SUPER tired today. Alright, I'll update again later, after I stop procrastinating... (:

BIG family day!

2009-08-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

S-M-I-L-E

This afternoon was photoshoot with family. I do not have photoshop in my computer thus I can't resize the photos. And if I were to upload more, I'm very sure it'll take superrrrr long. So, one photo for now and I'll upload more on Tuesday.

Photoshoot with cousins and all was funnn! I'm already looking forward to the next photoshoot! ;)

On the other hand, I still haven't made up my mind which phone I want to get. Dad is chasing me for an answer. HOW?!?!?!? LGcrystal or LGeigen?

WHICH ONE SHOULD I GET?!?!?! I need to survive with it for a year so I cannot afford to make a wrong decision, if not, I'll have to suffer with it for a year. zOMG! I need advices...!! Please?

Good job! -_-"

2009-08-08T11:07:00.000+08:00

Praise me la~ I cleverly left my phone in office. I don't know why the hell this happened. And now, I'm afraid that I lost it. zOMG can. Luckily, I have a spare phone. Don't remind me. It's long weekend. I know la. Silly me. :(

On a brighter note, Dad might be getting me a new mobile phone. Either LGcrystal or LGeigen. I can't make up my mind. Suggestions pleaseeeee... ;)

Visit singtelshop.com for details. hahaha! (:

Friday is the day of LOVE <3

2009-08-07T10:05:00.000+08:00

I love fridays! Okay, I'm repeating this phrase every Friday. Well, but it'a a voice from my heart.

I woke up slightly earlier than usual this morning. Stroll to bus stop, taking my own "sugary" time. It feels good when I don't need to walk "speedily" to the bus stop and being afraid of missing the bus. So anyway, I have a mission from Boss J today. He is very nice to give me such good deals. I'm not typing it out. It's a secret. Shhhhhs... Ask me, I'll tell you if you're my goooooooood friend. (:

On a light note, there's photoshoot tomorrow. I haven't been dieting. I've been eating non-stop. I can see the layers of fats. zOMG! Nevermind that. I thought of cutting BANGS again. Should I?

Well well well, I'll update more later after I'm done with my mission. MUAHAHAHAHA!

not easy...

2009-08-06T11:14:00.008+08:00

Recording is not easy.

Try repeating the damn 4 phrases for 10x. Try singing the chorus for 10x. NGs non-stop, retry till it's okay. Not perfect, not flawless. Just no mistakes at all. Ugly voice recorded, with combination of different pretty voices. Many supports and encourages, but doesn't help much because it's going on air. Totally sucks! Voice gets sore after countless of repetitions. Not fun, not fun at all.

I am totally not looking forward to Tuesday. The filming part. Yucks, so embarrasing. I hope we can skip Tuesday and head straight to Wednesday. I know that's not going to happen. *sobs*

*//EDITED (5.30pm)

I've rot through today doing extremely little things related to job. Yes, I am an ultimate slacker. I bet no one slack as much as I do. Hmmm, maybe not? :/

So, I've been thinking of what Daddy told me yesterday. About what I want to do after graduation. It's time for me to come up with a decision soon. However, dad says I can decide after I get my overall results, which I agree because I may not be able to enter local uni at all. Right?

The company that I'm having IAP now has invited me to work here after I graduate. Don't ask me about the pay, I have no idea. And I don't bother to ask since I don't know if I want to come back and work with them. If I choose to work full-time after graduation, it means I can no longer be full-time student. Thus, it is almost impossible for me to pursue Degree in Psychology because for me to practice, I need to at least obtain Masters. This will probably take me 5 years or so? I'm not sure.

Come to think of it, even if I can't enter local uni, I can fly overseas to continue my studies, taking the course I want. I don't know. I'm telling myself I still have about half a year(or maybe lesser?) to consider and make the right decision. I don't want any regrets. It'll just become a scar. An ugly one. I'll see about it, when the time comes. For now, I'll just continue thinking...

believe it or not.

2009-08-05T14:29:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 9am this morning. Damn shiok! *beams*

Drove to Orchid Country Club to get some stuffs, then went back home to fetch daddy. After that drove to office before dad took over the wheels. Today was safe and sound. haha. So, I reach office at around 11.15am I think.

Went to BrasBasa(how do i spell it?) Complex to photocopy some large floor plans. Return office at round 12noon. OMG, and I did some simple photoshopping for Boss H and print out the images for him. That's what I've been doing since just now.

Now? I'm rotting la. I still haven't eat my lunch and it's 2.30pm already! Ate some biscuits while waiting for Celyn to come back from the bank before we go for lunch. Yes, I am still waiting for her.

I hopes 6pm comes slowly. Anyway, I've got nothing to do. Just rot and rot and rot. Boss J is coming in at 6pm. OMG! I don't want to do the recording.(repeats 100000x)

I feel so sad already yet Angel still very rude to me lor. tsk tsk. ):

Oh and I read about the lawsuit about Stephenie Meyer(twilight saga author). So stupid can! $.$ That person must be jealous that the twilight saga is selling so well. Must be! Read here to know more.

Okay, I'm feeling very sleepy now, my head feels so heavy. Bye.

Doomsday):

2009-08-04T17:19:00.004+08:00

funnnn shottttttsssss! (:

I was having fun wearing the same shirt as my brother. Haha! Yes, I bought the I love Beijing tee for him too! So, we took photos together. hahaha. WO XI HUAN!

As the time ticks by, I hope that time will just simply freeze. You don't know how much I dread for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and the day and day after tomorrow. No matter how many MCs I take will not help a single bit. There're still 13 days of IAP. That's sad case for me.

Boss J plans that "embarassment" thing starts recording tomorrow. WTF x 1000000.

Well, but I still have to admit that Boss J & Boss H are very funny, friendly, nice and cute(the responds they give). I got rid of cold calls but I "invited" embarassment.

Alright, I know. I should stop whinning since the decision is final. ):

so tired ):

2009-08-04T11:21:00.003+08:00

I am feeling all so tired and photobucket is taking its own "sugary" time to upload my photo. While it uploads, I'm here to blog. I've finished updated the website(yay-ness!). So i'm rotting again. No more worries about getting retributions because I have new things to worry about.

Just one word to describe it all. EMBARASSMENT, that is.

I'll update later... When that pathetic one image is uploaded. (:

一定会付出代价...

2009-08-03T15:49:00.004+08:00

On a VERY x10000000000 happy note, I can finally stop procrastinating. Yes, I don't have to worry about calling those ~~damn~~ people whom I don't know what they will reply to the things which I am suppose to tell them. :D

Boss J came in just now. I was telling him that I am very reluctant to call the people or rather the managers and the owners of those shops, as I know and knew that I definately would get retributions. He, being all so nice and constantly 敷衍-ing me(like someone who also does this). Okay, nevermind about the 敷衍 part. So, he actually said I can ask my new colleague to do that for me. How nice of him! I am super glad about it. He said he totally understood my situation and kept laughing at me. How rude. -_-" So we were talking and joking about some stuffs. I help him with some non-related office stuffs and some ~~stupid~~ ideas struck him. He decided to give me another task(job-related and profitable), a task that is "kind of" worse than getting retributions from calling people.

I don't have the courage to type it out here. I feel so "pai sae" or rather embarrass to talk about it. He said I have no choice and his decision is final. OMG can. He sounded super excited about it while he shared that so-called new project with me. On a side note, Celyn kept laughing over his ideas while he talked and explained to us excitedly. When that project is done, which he said would be by Friday (Oh god!), you will understand the embarrassment. Please do not laugh ok? I will thank you deep deep and whole-heartedly. I am feeling damn sad over it now. But he makes it sounded very good with good benefits, but it totally doesn't make me feels happy about.

After that, he rushed off for meeting still excited over his ideas. Oh My, what an interesting boss I have. Boss H is always out for meetings. Lucky he's not around, if not, I'm sure he will join in the "fun". So, in short, I have to pay off with another thing to get rid of something I refuse to do. For the time being, I'll think of ideas and reasons to shooo this idea away from his mind. Or I'll convince him in getting others instead of me. Just now, I tried and thought of alot of reasons. Okay, I did something rude today, which is to use what he shoot me to shoot him back. This was why I got this stupid shit. "Nice" job done! *pats on head*

DAMN DAMn DAmn Damn damn sad.

And my tagboard has been DEAD for don't know how long already. People, please tag! (:

So, I'm actually partially rotting today. Not totally because I have things to do. Update the website. It's giving me problems again. Goodness Me! ):

Hopefully, I'll update with pictures soon!

Declaration of no Monday, I wish.

2009-08-03T10:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I was watching Garfield 2 Movie, OMG, garfield is still as adorable. HAHA! I think the part where he declares that there's no Monday, is damn funny can. then the bulldog was like, alright, Tuesday then. HAHA. okay, I'm in my own wonderland. (:

I'm still procrastinating over the calling part. Really don't feel like calling. DAMN SIAN. Still hoping that someone would call on my behalf. Dream on, I know. ):